suddenly i feel so sick of everything

my family my life and all

my mum keeps picking on me
just bcoz i'm the oldest.
okayys i probably don't look like one
but i do know my responsibilties
why does she have to keep harping?!
fuck.

i look at my books and nothing goes in
i just can't seem to study. don't know why either
ystrday was totally pointless
din do any revision at all
fuck.

and i din want that misunderstanding
it just made my day worse
without it i'd probably be happier
at least i'd have sum one to depend on.
but it happened.
fuck.

well. time to go waste my day
good luck for MYEs all.

btw if you are reading dis..
you aren't studying hard enuf. XDXDXD
* taken frm 4L whiteboard. nice quote. ^^

emaths paper was okay today
though i probably screwed it up
i always do. XD

we got scammed by the school today
kinda. LOL
i think they announced ystrday
dat we were supposed to go for flag raising
before reporting to school hall
well alot of us went to the hall immediately
den for a moment we were all blur la
standing there like sotongs

anyways it was freaking cold in there
my nose was running away again. LOL
made it hard to concentrate
RARR.

tml is emaths paper 1!
hahas lol and geog paper oso. for sum pple
hmm wad am i still sitting here for?

anyways i slept very late ystrday
at abt 1am. just to accompany my sis in her bia-ing
wad a good sister i am. XD
thank gdness its triple T today. hahas LOL

despite my 6hrs of slp ONLY
i found enuf energy to go CRAZY during PE today
most probably its the dark choco i had. XD

we had to run 5 rounds arnd the sch field
den 40 inlined pull ups and 40 sit ups.
supposedly we had to practice shuttle run
but chai was pissed den whoots~
we had our free time. hahas.
i was kinda madly rounding pple for captain's ball
"谁要玩 captain's ball?"

grp 1 dio trashed badly today. hahas
bcoz we din have tall pple to defend
but vivanna did the job well. XD
she noes how to improvise by grabbing a chair and standing on it.
smart vivanna! hahas.

there was alot of screaming as usual
mostly everyone contributed. XD
but kudos to jazz cindy peishan and sabrina!
i think their singapore spirit was right on. hahas
COUNT ON ME SINGAPORE. XD
dis happens when you take geog.
you become a very gd tour guide. hahas ^^
i think one day they can sing for NDP. whoots~
bring glory to 4L yups.

yeah i guess i'm zi highing today
don't know why. guess i'm in an unbelievably good mood
i'm not feeling stressed for MYEs yet. hahas.
and according to the board. its only <24hrs
hmm. doesn't feel like it. hahas.

actually i think i'm nuts
MYEs is starting on friday
and i am still online
LOL

i just find dat syf has actually taken up alot of my time
everyone has alrdy started alot of their revision liao
but we were still dancing and preparing until a few days ago

i don't know. i just don't have the mood to study right now
one whole day has passed and i've gotten no where
its not as if i don't want to study
its more like i don't noe where to start
everything seems to nid help
but when i open my books
i completely blank out

oh shit man i hate exams

dis is my handphone de ringtone. LOL
its kinda cute larh. hahas
the lyrics are meaningful. XD

plus it has a special meaning for me. ^^

简单爱

说不上为什么
我变得很主动
若爱上一个人
什么都会值得去做

我想大声宣布
对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受

河边的风
在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手
一阵莫名感动
我想带你回我的外婆家
一起看着日落
一直到我们都睡着

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧唱着歌一直走

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡着
像这样的生活
我爱你你爱我

想.. 简简单单爱...

today's chinese oral was pretty much screwed
din do well bcoz of my fcuking flu

i dio luo laoshi. XD
which actually meant dat i could do okay
bcoz i think she's lenient plus kinda biased larh. XD
but i started coughing during the passage
RARR. fcuk the throat infection
plus the conversation.
i din really noe how to express myself
she noticed i kept using the word "like"
so so so screwed.

anyway danicia was late today!
damn late la
if i din call her she probably wouldn't have woken up
lazy rab. sorry yj! XD
it was kinda lucky bcoz i thot she was in school liao. LOL
main intention was to ask her where she was
o.O den her slpy voice replied.. "oh shit." hahas.

we went to popeye's after oral
ohh man i love the fried fish!
i ate it though i knew i was sick
suffering now. but it was totally worth it. XD
a freaking can of green tea cost 2 bucks
yeah i noe its heaven and earth
shld be more exp but 2 bucks is ridiculous!
i bought it anyway. XD
my addiction is too strong. RARR. must fight it.

slacked sum more at popeye's
wahh dat freaking funny show on yj's mp4! XD
damn lame lah. but hilarious.

yet another FUN day.

evelyn's edited photos! oh man she's damn good

btw dats yaqi's pretty eye! XD

our ridiculously large mountain of fries. XD

those were some photos frm wednesday.

kope frm evelyn and yaqi's blog. hahas

i suddenly fell sick today. LOL

weird sia. i was sneezing in class den borrowing tissue frm jazz

now i'm having sore throat

and guess what?

tml is chinese oral. whoots.

i'm so screwed.

whoo~ my comp recovered frm the lag! hahas
its all my sister's fault la. RARR
she downloaded dis thingy
make the whole comp lag like shit
type sumthing nida w8 for 5 secs
den the alphabets scroll out ONE BY ONE. =.=
so bye bye to the program. XD

anyway ystrday was the homecoming syf
helpers for ystrday were me ruiting yiling evelyn mel and cheryl
siaoded six! LMAO. oh yeah and danicia! XD
cheryl was going crazy with the hair spray
and suddenly my name became U-PIN
LOL! pang unlimited la. bleaghx

we went to the viewing gallery to watch other schools' item
the first one was too simple la. den din have the energy oso.
surprisingly most schools din hav alot of techniques
they were mostly hiphop/freestyle items. weird.
but anyway bgss de item was damn nice
they were like super energised. screaming like siao onstage
i liked the part where they bounced all the bballs backstage. whoo~

i don't really know wad to say regarding homecoming's item
but they were disappointed.
nalina cried on my shoulder.
and now there's a beautiful splatter of foundation on my uniform
bryan owes me a shirt now. XD

btw. i gotta say sry to the homecoming pple oso
sorry for making too much noise in the bus
and being kinda insensitive to your feelings
i guess we forgot in our high-ness. SORRY

danicia chased me arnd the upper sec block
total madness lor. just bcoz of yj
i ran up to 4L den up to 3L
den down to 4E and back across to 3A
wahh really mad sia
i was damn tired at the end
but not tired enuf. XD

mhui yaqi ruiting yiling evelyn cheryl and miaoqian plus ME
we went to makan at the airport. XD
me and my bright idea. hahas
mcdonalds! XDXD

on our way to mac
we saw pple filming a show there
huang junxiong and guo huiwen were there
and okays i dun mean to be hua chi
BUT huang junxiong was damn shuai in person la! XD

i'm not the most "agitated" de
melissa and cheryl were worse. ^^
they actually ran back to the set after they finished eating
too bad they left la. HAHAS.
but they came back wif dis story on police, lizards and ants. ROFL
i laugh till stomachache la. =.=
i guess its probably bcoz of our ridiculously large mountain of fries
oh my gosh. the silly game we played! hahas

and i'm proud to say that i had 2 bottles and 1 reg cup of green tea
plus 7 packets of chilli
my addiction is well controlled. XDXD

hmm oh yeah we took a grp picture!
in front of the colourful board dat i think pang wanted to bring home
yaqi says shes gonna deco her hse dat way in the future
i bet ruiting wouldn't wanna end the hsewarming party. XD

我一直都在

遥望着你背影
有孤单太苍白
我多么想陪着你 走过人山人海

当天空变灰白
你的忧伤澎湃
我多么想走进你 紧锁的心海

我一直都在 你身后等待
等你有一天 回过头 看我
我的笑送给你 希望你快乐
你的难过 都给我
关于你的一切 我都好好收藏着

我一直都在 你身后等待
等你有一天 能感觉到我
就算我在你世界渺小 像一颗尘埃
我也会给你我所有的光和热

我鼓起勇气呐喊
你要听得见
我不许你再孤单
要你拥抱我给的温暖

我一直都在 你身后等待
等你有一天 回过头 看我
我的笑送给你 希望你快乐
你的难过 都给我
关于你的一切 我都好好收藏着

我一直都在你身后等待
等你有一天 能感觉到我
就算我在你世界 渺小像一颗尘埃
我也会给你我所有的光和热

stayed back in school to w8 for evelyn today!
evelyn big VIP worh! hahas jkjk.
LOL. actually is to give the juniors their presents. hahas
those who nv get frm us must claim soon ahh. XD

anyways i finally had my bio test
revision 1. rofl la. so lag
i was sitting outside the staff room
den mhui and NANApok was discussing stuff wif sunli. lucky them
sunli was suddenly like
ehh is dat jingting? ask her come over discuss dance fund
MADNESS LA. i having test sia.

oh yeah today morning
dis lizard was wreaking havoc in nalina's locker
hahas. she was damn freaked la. screaming away.
"the lizard's under my bio book!" hahas
okayys i dun mean to be sadist la.
but its kinda funny. bcoz i've nv seen her dat agitated. XD
she was emotional in the canteen oso
suddenly she grabbed me den said
"MINGpok and MELpok said they dreamt we got gold."
wahh she looked like she was gonna cry. o.O?
i think she's tired and stressed

btw dun ask me wads wif the ___pok thingy
now i'm JINGpok. LOL

anyways tml's the homecoming syf
i gotta wake up at 5am. =.=
makeup artist! hahas.
i think they'll do gr8
bcoz they've really put in alot of effort
plus their techniques are really gd

whatever the award
we are all still frm ahs dancesociety
no nid to seperate the 2 grps de
chinese dance and modern dance
its the same.

do not OSTRACIZE

ahs HO got gold for syf. CONGRATS

o.O. which means ahs currently has
2 GWH
2 golds
1 silver and 1 bronze
which makes the homecoming grp very very stressed

actually i'm kinda pissed today morning
bcoz i din expect potato to announce our results
sunli told us dat she told the school to announce wif the hmcoming results
lameshyt. he said chinese dance sum more

haiz anyway it was damn demoralising lor.
bcoz its like CHINESE dance bronze and choir and guitar GWH
bleaghx.

i felt so dead today. dunno why. LOL
so random.

english oral ystrday was pretty much screwed
bcoz i dio mrs ganesan.
not dat i hav anything against her
she's quite nice. as i rmb frm sec2
just dat i heard she's REALLY strict

actually i was choinging for mrs hudd
i think most 2jayers were
bcoz yj was in front of me and weneng
den i think guodong and perry were behind us
ROFL. but in the end i din get her la
retarded sc. i insist you follow the rules and regulations. LAMESHYT

anyways after dat
i went LJS wif da rab and pb
my chilli addiction! LOL
i seem to be addicted to lotsa stuff

both of them wanted to catch a movie
i recommended the 200 pounds beauty larhs. XD
i din intend to watch actually
bcoz i din tell my mum i was going out =.=
but sadly sadly
i gave in to peer pressure. LOL.
they are damn good at psycho-ing
plus! i owe pb a small little fortune now. =.=

okays the movie was quite nice
the plot was sumthing like dis girl who is totally overweight
she has a nice voice but yeah. no one gives a damn
dis music producer uses her voice for another singer
hu CANNOT sing at all
so she's always lip synching
sumthing liddat.

the poor girl called hanna
due to sumthing she heard. she feels damn depressed
but den she went for plastic surgery
and poof she became HOT
post- surgery she kinda looks like shu qi. =.=
sumhow she manages to sign a record deal with the producer who broke her heart
bcoz she lied dat she was a natural beauty or sumthing

kinda difficult to explain
dunno why am i really doing dis oso. =.=
guess i'm just bored
but anyway i din noe the ending
bcoz i had to leave
my mum was calling like crazy mah. gahhhs
what a waste.

but i learnt sumthing frm dis movie
no matter how you change ur looks
you can never change who you really are on the inside
bcoz hanna still retained some of her old habits
dat led to pple arnd her discovering her past
big oops. but whatever.
i'm still kinda pissed for missing the ending.
RARR.

hm. today was kinda random
bcoz i got pissed and i got high all in one day
LOL

the school is irritating me with the ridiculous attire check
everyday they oso must check for faults.
ever heard of nobody's perfect?

sure. if i tuck in my shirt i'll get 6 for L1R5
if my socks go to my knees i'll go RJC
bullshit theory.
the uniform does not determine grades.
we'll get better grades if we can stop worrying abt getting caught

its not dat we walk arnd blatantly with our shirts out
we do make an effort to keep it in.
it just doesn't. so tell me wad to do
drawstring oso cannot.

i mean c'mon.
so long as you look neat hu cares how you do it?
and i'm not gonna tuck in all the way till my waistband can be seen.
stupid standard.

anyway i really think sum pple are abusing authority
like a certain CHINESE HOD
i nv bring dictionary nia.
give me demerit for wad?

go ahead lor. give it to the principal for all i care
i wanna see wads my offence sia.
open defiance= not bringing dictionary
HOW LAME CAN YOU GET?
and if green forms are the only way for you to get promoted
den you really fail as a tcher
fcuking asshole.

anyways i was supposed to go tm wif weneng and jazz
minyu lao ba din come today
we wanted to watch 300 200 pounds. eat yoshinoya oso
but den i had to stay back for sum CHINESE thingy
stupidity. =.=

so went to eat wif pb and rab. soo extra la me.
bedok inter de kfc. but i nearly refused to go in there bcoz of SUMONE
mel joined us halfway. XD
den began our lil game of table hockey!
hahas. the container of mashed potato bcame our hockey puck
passing it arnd to prevent rab frm eating it
she totally BANKAI-ED me
and the potato nearly went all over my shirt
OH YEAH THNKS YJ
for sliding me the mashed potato when i wasn't looking =.=
extreme crazyness

thanks for being there for me ^^

oh yeah.
the spastic neos

mhui yaqi mel and onezero are REALLY hungry. XD

gayshit loves! XD

paparazzi photos! XD

o.O. yiling and pang's face is covered.

i went out wif evelyn pang and onezero again. ^^
thinking back
i wasn't really close to them before syf
i guess we kinda bonded bahx. XD

anyways dis time we went to buy stuff for the juniors
bcoz we thot dat they totally deserved the reward
for putting in their best on stage dat day.
so we walked arnd for quite long
got sum ideas but we couldn't really decide.
so walk arnd sum more

okay we also side-tracked a little
hahas it was hilarious at the singtel shop.
there was dis interactive screen thingy
to "play" wif the phones
me and pang dio scammed by it larhs.
so paisehh. =.=

after buying the stuff. we had our takopachi! hahas
i got my BACON AND CHEESE. same as yiling larhs.
actually i kinda felt bad while eating it
bcoz pang oso wanted the same thing larhs.
she let me have it. aww so touched! =.=
so PANG UNLIMITED
if you are reading dis.
you should be totally honoured. XD

we went shopping at NTUC oso! LOL
yiling pang and evelyn went crazy over the tidbits
they were buying quite alot lorh
see wad buy wad. =.=
poor me. no money le so cannot stock up for MYE mugging
only can comment and let my tummy growl. rarr
lets see. their item list

PANG UNLIMITED : dat white grape gummy thingy
potato fries! TOTALLY NICE
ONEZERO : her white choco pocky
oreo biscuits. she wants to throw it into the fridge XD
i think i saw CADBURY'S CHOCO. hazelnut ^^
EVELYN! : potato fries oso. she introduced it to unlimited de
meji milk choco. i prefer dark choco though. XD

erms. i think my memory is kinda failing me
bcoz i noe they bought more than dis
crazy gayshit hoarders. XD

anyways today was FUN.

we got BRONZE!
i know dis might not be much to others
but to me. its alrdy very gd le
bcoz of wad happened before with my juniors
i think this is the best we can have
everyone did their best le

the judges felt dat we were bronze standard
mostly bcoz of our un-chinese like dance
but if they din insist on being "traditional"
we probably could have done better
i say dis bcoz i heard some pple's comments
like according to mel
she heard sum pple in the audience say dat
" wah. dis dance confirm GWH de " ^^
and rmb the judge who viewed our rehearsal and gave comments?
he watched us on the actual day oso
he told laoshi dat we had improvement
and we shld be able to get silver.
sumtimes pple have different views

so hey pple cheer up k?
charmaine and cheryl i noe they cried
i admit i cried oso ^^
bcoz i was happy dat we din get COP
i was peeing in my pants
when the judges said they wanted "traditional yet innovative" =.=
we were totally innovative yeah. but not traditional
i was damn worried they'll say we din really qualify

anyway let me show you wads called moral courage
RUBBISH

evelyn's brilliant photos. she's pro at editing




pang unlimited's ferris wheel!

isabel said : "stick out your heads pls! " XD

*point point*

yiling unlimited and me!

da famous five!

ruiting evelyn and yilingONEZERO

our syf photos! hahas.

the makeup is totally thick lor

XD

tml is the syf results.

i'm so freaking nervous.
yet i feel kinda calm. LOL

i noe i'll definitely cry
regardless of whether the results are good or bad.
bcoz its OUR effort all the same.
yeah. all 16 dancers and 7 helpers. am i right?
plus the reserves oso
anyway i think everyone in dance played a part
for supporting us and all

live dance. dats VIVA DASANT's meaning
i'll nv stop dancing till i drop dead


i know you'll be there to catch me when everything falls apart.

gahhs.
my skin din work anymore. super sad.
i love the abstract art la.
but den cannot see the post box thingy
stupid blogger says cannot off the navbar
so pissed. =.=

bo pian now have to change to dis skin.
quite nice. sumthing like my previous shooting star de
though the words are small
but i still prefer the beautiful disaster skin!
* if anyone can help me. pls. i nid help

kkz i seem so emotional today.
i cried and laughed at the same time after syf ended. T.T
i din really noe why.
just a mixture of feelings.
like damn happy dat i managed to make no mistakes.
happy dat i smiled all throughout
happy dat we managed to put our differences aside
i bounced along the hallway wif yiling. BOING

but also. i'm damn sad
bcoz dis is the last time i'll be dancing onstage.
my last dance in ahs dance society.

still. it was more tears of joy rather than regret.
and i am happy dat its dis way. XD

oh yeah mac breakfast was yummy
my EGG MCMUFFIN and GREEN TEA
total happiness la. ^^
and mhui's HUSH brown. XD

we still had to go to the parade square.
pple were so surprised to see me there.
LOL. but thnks all for the encouragement!! ^^

chm gave devotion today.
sadist la. " i read obituaries with much pleasure"
sumthing liddat. =.=

dr boon oso came by the aircon hall
we were like getting rdy for her to see
she just walked in. said a few words. den left. o.O
wad were we rushing for man?

anyway basically we were slacking arnd for 5 hrs
w8ing for makeup application.
my eyebrows were trimmed. =.=
and i got fake eyelashes which were SUPER long
they fell off after i cried. XD

basically everything went quite smoothly.
the schools before us as quite sian. according to mhui and mel
everyone was in traditional costume lor. fans and ribbons.
chinese contemp category mahh.
but only us. we were cool. but kinda out of place
bcoz we were holding laptops. XD

after washing off the war paint.
unlimited. yilingONEZERO. mel. mhui. yaqi and ME
we went tm to have pasta! XD
damn fun la. yiling eats slow man. like jazz
both of them can fight liao. ^^
we took spastic neoprints oso. XD

FUN FUN FUN day

whoots~
just came back frm mini-outing with evelyn yiling and mel
actually we went to school to prepare syf stuff
spray the laptops yellow
when we reached we couldn't find the yellow spray paint.
so bo pian we had to use the old can.
luckily it worked.

guitar was inside practising.
made me wonder why we weren't
their syf is l8r la. 3 days to be exact.
actually we shld lor. and evelyn wanted to.
but hmm. i dun think they'll turn up.
so wads the point?

anyway unlimited couldn't go with us to tm today
bcoz she had tuition at parkway
so we went to tamp kfc. SUPER hungry.
decided to try the new meltz thingy
since my usual bandito pockett wasn't available. =.=
but its was a DISAPPOINTMENT
not as nice as we thought.
oh well at least 5 pple got scammed together. XD

afterwards we went to buy dance stuff
u-pins makeup remover etc.
even a ridiculously big amt of cotton wool. XD
but the totally fun part was buying presents for the sec4s!
hahas. not gonna spoil the surprise.

but evelyn me and mel ended up buying a pillow each
evelyn bought one for her sis oso
super cute la. all the baby mickey de. XD
den after we walked out of the shop
we looked like crazy shopaholics. hahas.
bcoz of the no. of bags we were carrying.

montip next! hahas.
dat was more of personal shopping bah. XD
i bought 2 pairs of earrings. though i dun usually wear.
one of then i exchanged ONE with evelyn.
so now i have 1 black star and 1 white star. ^^

yiling poured her antibotics into curry sauce!
hahas. it wasn't our tray of food la.
we went mac to find a place to sit.
our legs were freaking tired!
just nice got empty table. so.. hahas. XD
kinda bad of us.
but please sympathise our legs. LOL

i can't wait for gayshit outing! hahas
ITS GONNA ROCK.

OMG OMG OMG
syf is THIS MONDAY
i am so freaking nervous.
i am scared that sumthing might go wrong.

i don't really hope for anything.
i just don't want a COP
certificate of participation.

i must do my best.
rmb to smile and all dat.
and lets hope everyone does.

anyway ystrday helen chew let us watch i not stupid 2
ending part ystrday.
i almost cried again lah. hahas
but i was like telling myself.. in class cannot cry la. so paiseh. XD
LOL so random.

chm let us eat our prizes ystrday. XD
we went for a mini-excursion to the canteen. LOL
bcoz he didn't let us eat in class.
aiya grace period nvm de mah. XD
anyway it wasn't meant to suan anyone la.
not showing off either.
okay?

dance ended at 7pm as usual.
nothing much la. only dat i got RICHER. hehes jking.
oh yeah sumone pissed me off ystrday.
fcuking asshole

omg today's assembly was SUPER fun
ben tan was like doing this global citizen thingy
his own version of the who wants to be a millionaire. =.=
anyway they got us to sit in grps. not rows. class lah.
4L was like at the back.
we got our genius perry to represent us. XD

ben tan kept calling us sec3s LOL
anyway we had to answer qns and raise placards.
we got a score of 13/15
tied with 4B and 4C.
4B dio eliminate.
den 4C and us.
double science vs trip science. LOL
btw i din say dat. =.=
ben tan did. he was like double science double science.
actually wads the difference sia.
we are all people. zzz.

anyways it was fun not bcoz we won.
but bcoz we enjoyed the whole process. XD
we were like. ehh ehh B la. no no A!
poor perry. we made him damn blur.

chm was damn qian bian
first he refused to go up and get the prize
den after he went up he sneaked out with it!
actually more like he walked out proudly.
gahhs. XD. he came back frm the back door. LOL

i want 4L de three cheers!

three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for 4L
hip hip hurray
hip hip hurray
HIP HIP HURRAY!

i'm back in school! hahax.
today was quite okay bahz. XD

first. i got that stupid ying yong wen thingy.
gahhs dats hopeless liao.
i confirm have to copy 3 times.

den chm lesson. wahh kao surprise maths test. =.=
plus.. " at least i'm not purple and gay " XD
oh yeah i got dat right.
we had 3 maths lessons today. thank gdness not 5 like i thot.
or i'd probably just jump and die.

dance was sumhow better than i expected.
my leg hurt at the end. gahhs.
i want the pain to go away
i totally din apprec8 SUN getting us to run frm main hall to tower hall
in SEVEN mins. in our COSTUME
no makeup though. XD.
sry cheryl and yeni. din mean to qi pian ni men de gan qing. ^^

sum MOH pple came to watch our performance.
decided if they want us to perform for sum charity show or whatever.
den SDT oso wants to see us. wow
btw its Singapore Dance Troupe or sumthingy.
not STD. bleaghx. dun speak english if u can't.
anyway YOU ALL are gonna be practicing dis dance for a LONG time.
good luck man.

me ruiting yiling and yaqi went 85 after.
there was dis pri sch kid there who totally freaked us out.
he kept pestering us to buy his waffle.
i guess he totally enjoys making it. >.<
its like we order. den he's like "waffle"
"i want one green tea waffle and one milk tea waffle"
kinda irritating.
yiling and yaqi siam one side
den unlimited looked SO fierce sia.
he started pestering me instead.
"eh red specs de. waffle waffle waffle"
ERMS. weird. waffle obsession.

oh yeah evelyn got me my heroin today.
XDXDXD
green tea addiction.

i hurt my heel on saturday! LOL
kinda stupid la. i knocked it against the door
now it totally hurts to walk lor.
hopefully i'll be okay by tml.
bcoz there's FULL DRESS REHEARSAL.
sian. including makeup lor. eeee. WAR PAINT.

anyway. its kinda nice to be able to slack at home. XD
i missed physics SPA though. gotta do makeup le.
sian.

dis is a song i happened to chance upon on mtv last night
i thot the song was nice so i wanted to share it. XD
damn touching larh.

here are the lyrics.

how to save a life.

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

ohh man i cried when i heard dis.

'What" will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

OMG dis is like super lame can?
the muppets will miss me. LOL

i went out wif jazz minyu weneng and wenjuan tday
out to redeem my free meal!
but i kinda felt bad larh.
bcoz its only 15mins of my slp lorh.
precious but not exp. LOL
so i told jazz to save the money. XD
she can always treat me to takopachi instead. hahaz

we went yoshinoya to eat. tampines mall
den ended up eating all the same thing.
SALMON WITH RICE. LOL.
its kinda nice though. i've always loved jap rice
so different frm normal rice. but its not authentic.
weneng says dat we can nv get to eat real jap rice
bcoz japan refuses to export.
erms okayyz. whatever la.
SELFISH. XD

i decided to update my blog today
bcoz i got no hmwork XD!
and im too lazy to study for chinese
GO AHEAD FAIL ME YOU FAGGOT
*yawnx*
im like super tired larh.
jazz made me come to school super early tday
okayz larh not say VERY
but she made me slp 15mins lesser. ^^
den i had to make use of lesson time to slp.
okay dats just an excuse.
bcoz i ALWAYS slp in class
hahaz. XD. its a habit.
and i can't help it.
cuz the tcher's lullaby is just too nice
whatever. =.=
anyway she wanted lipstick brushes lorh. LOL
den i had to run to school to pass it to her
now she totally nids to buy me lunch. XD
free popeyes meal! whoots~
after school we still had dance.
nida wear costume. bleaghz
the stupid shiny pants. super itchy larh!
but den the whole rehearsal was mostly okay
din hafta really shout or whatever
if only every prac was like dis
i ended up reaching home at abt 7plus
quite an improvement le lorh.
so haiz.. im sitting here feeling so sian.
oh yeah.
CONGRATS AHS CO!
GOLD AWARD lehz! gong xi gong xi.
and jazz still complained abt not doing well when she came back
hahaz. now i feel so stressed.
bcoz band is next to go.
confirm at least gold de.
den its us le!
im so terrified larh. i totally dun want a COP
bcoz dats just lousy.
imagine. gold gold COP gold gold gold gold
wtf?

heyz!
i've changed my blogskin again XD
bcoz i decided dat i needed a new change.
besides..
dis skin is so much nicer than dat black one
i like the abstract design ^^
sum more i am kinda sick of dark skins
so hey. why not? hahaz

im like so busy these few days i just feel like dying
sum more i got an injury! sobx
i overstretched my hamstring on friday =.=
bcoz i tried to do a split. LOL

so now it totally hurts when i bend down and try to stretch
i gotta get better b4 16th april!
bcoz dats when syf is.
OMG i can't believe we have only 15 days left.
pray pray pray dat nothing wrong will happen

btw.
happy april fools all! XD

my blog is like dead lahh..
exactly like how i'm feeling now lor.
tired and sick of everything.

SYF is only 3 weeks away.
dat might seem like alot of time to some pple
but its not.
not when you have juniors with attitude problems

no cca is perfect.
and dance is always tiring.
but hey at least it used to be fun
i din have to worry abt anything in the past
even when i became sec4 i din really have to
but i dunno why dis had to happen

its not as if sec4s want to scold and push blame or anything
like who the hell would wan to do dat?
but somehow pple just mistake us sec4s
they think we treat them like our punching bags
OMG i'm so stressed i wan to pump someone today

i'm SORRY but we never meant to do that.
i'm not gonna say u deserve it
bcoz no one should be punished
no one except sadist freaks would enjoy pumping pple for no reason
I'M NOT A SADIST FREAK.
NONE OF US gayshits are.

but its you all who drove us up the wall
if you have any opinions you shld have the guts to say it
and not complain and post abt it.
do any of you understand the shame of having internal conflicts in your cca?

its like the whole school noes dat dance has problems
sure.. every cca will have some problems
but not to dis extent.

its not as if we are sec4s den you can't communicate wif us or sumthing
WE ARE ALL HUMAN
and its okay if you are unhappy over sumthing
just spit it out
is it really dat hard?

anyway.
i dun wan to see dance be destroyed liddat
its all bcoz of nothing
so dun blame us anymore
and listen to wad we say
its not much.
and its alot less painful like dat.

and btw.
liaolaoshi wasn't pissed of at us
she was disappointed.

which makes it even worse.

happy 2007!
okay kinda lag lah..
january is almost over liao lor
hahaz.
anyway.. i haven't been updating lah
bcoz everytime i go online
i click on the freaking orange mush..
hahahaz.. lvl 42 liao! zzz. nothing much.

syf is coming..
so it means more dance prac lah. sian.
but den hor.. dis yr i dun hav to really dance.
hahahaz. bcoz sec4 liao den super song4.
we kinda just instruct the juniors
and make them practise over and over again.
tekan session! hahaz.. jking nia
but really la..
we gotta jiayou if we dun wan dance to be DISBANDED
yup dats right.
dis yr is really important to us
bcoz according to minghui's sources..
if we get anything less than a silver dis yr..
dance society is gonna be no more.
although i have only been in DS for 3 yrs..
the memories that i have is more than dat.
like the recent dance camp and all..

OH YA dance camp was super fun!
i can't believe i din blog abt it. zzz
2 days of crazy jamacian language
and all night mahjong.. whoo.
not to mention my 4am mcwings.. hahaz.
viva dasant 2006 rocked.
gayshit united!

i admit dat actually
the whole camp wasn't as adventure-packed
bcoz most of the time we let the juniors slack
asked them to practice their grp performance..
and supposedly we shld hav SYF PRAC.
siao lor. like who in the right mind.
but it wasn't us lah.
higher authority wanted ur to
but she FAILED. hahaz

still.. she spoiled the whole thing in the end.
but i like.. can't continue cuz my eyes wun let me
bleagh.. tired liaoz.
next time.

1. How are you feeling today?
[more to life] by staccie orrico
hmm.. sumthing is lacking?

2. Will you get far in life?
[Bie shuo dui bu qi] by S.H.E
does dis mean i'll nv do anything wrong?
and i'll forgive easily? lol

3. How do your friends see you?
[i live for the day] by Lindsay Lohan
yay..

4. Will you get married?
[ yong qi] by Fish Leong
u nid courage in everything..
and i dun think i hav dat.. haha

5. What's your best friend's theme song?
[all the small things] by Blink 182
little actions mean alot =P

6. What's the story of your life?
[hard to believe] high school muscial
yeah.. hard to believe dat i am still so short..
w8.. i'm not that sure..

7. What was high school (secondary school) like?
[ultimate] by Lindsay Lohan
yay.. ahs is so much better than rss.. whoots

8. How can you get ahead in life?
[bob to the top] high school musical
i'm not dat competitive..
but i agree dat mus strive for the best XD

9. What is the best thing about your friends?
[public affair] by Jessica Simpson
errr.. wtf.

10. What's in store this weekend?
[tian hui] by S.H.E
... i'm not depressed okay?!
haha

11. What song describes you?
[tong hua] by Guang Liang
ehh.. i'll hold on to the things i believe in?

12. To describe your grandparents?
[start of something new] high school musical
dots.

13. What song will they play at your funeral?
[it ends tonight] by All American Idiots
sounds appropriate.

14. How does the world see me?
[ all in this together]
i like working wif pple.. grinx

15. Will you have a happy life?
[ breaking free]
only if there is freedom.. so give me!

16. What do your friends really think of you?
[beautiful soul] by jesse mccartney
.... nothing to say.

17. Do people secretly lust after you?
[yue gui nu shen] by S.H.E
.....

18. How can I make myself happy?
[hou niao] by S.H.E
watching birds fly away..
it doesnt make me happy.. XD

19. What should you do with your life?
[ just lose it] by eminem
i've already lost it.. =P

20. Will you ever have children?
[complicated] by avril lavigne
dis says it all.

lol.. all this is basically crap la..
i'm being bored to death..
waiting for maple update to be done..
so decided to do dis lor..
these few days quite sian la..
not much to do except play maple.
hahahax.

dis story is frm my email.. again.. haha
too lazy to forward it..
and i think i'm spamming alot of pple liaox
haha..

10th Grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so-called "best friend". I stared at her long silky hair. I wished she were mine, but she didn't notice me like that. And I knew it. After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before, and handed to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why.

11th Grade
The phone rang. It was her on the other end. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, a Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks," and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why. .

12th Grade
The day before prom she walked to mylocker. "My date is sick," she said. He's not going to go. Well, I didn't have a date and in 7th grade we made a promise that if neither of us had dates we would go together just as "best friends," so we did.

Prom night
after everything was over I was standing at her front doorstep. I stared at her. She smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that and I know it. Then she said, "I had the best time, thanks and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why

Graduation Day
Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. i wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and she cried as I hugged her. Then, she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "You're my best friend, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her.I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why

A Few Years Later
Now, i sit in the pews of the church. She is getting married now. I watched her say, "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine but she didn't see me like that and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said, "You came!." She said, "thanks!" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, and I looked down at the coffin of the girl who used to be my "best friend." At the service they read a diary she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read : I stare at him wishing he were mine. But he doesn't notice me like that,and I know it. I want to tell him. I want him know that I don't want to be just friends. I love him, but I'm just too shy and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me..
I wish I did too . . . I thought to myself, and I cried..

if you don't take the opportunity..
you will really regret it in the future..
there will nv be a second chance..
so grab the chance while u hav it..
and appr8 the pple arnd u..
bcoz you'll nv noe when they'll leave
i learnt dis the hard way..
but still..
though you may not be there anymore..
i'll always be there for you.

todays bridging was super sian la..
kinda pointless lor..
we were sitting down there..
doing sum qns..
the tcher gave us 5 mins for each qns
but she kip explaining la..
den we trying to keep up..
i din really listen lor..
doing it by myself..
and tching the rab la..
haix.. complete waste of time..
self studying is so much better la..
i think its oso bcoz the tchers hav no idea..
of wad they should do for us..
everyone de mistakes different wad..
so actually.. bridge wad?
ahh.. sian..

ystrday's discovery center was super boring..
we kept sitting and waiting..
den walked arnd sum exhibition..
and wait sum more..
only the 3D movie was nice..
but i din really enjoy it..
bcoz i couldn't SEE!
my specs broke la..
actually it was only the frame..
den the optician broke the lenses as well..
now i have nothing!
i wasn't wearing contacts AT ALL
my mum din let lor.. walao
den my specs hav to wait till thursday..
haix.. 2 days of partial blindness.. WHOOTS

dis is sumthing ruiting sent...
sum qns missing la..hahaha..

Starting Time: 11.15am
Full Name: Ng Jing Ting
Best Friend(s): so many.. shu bu qing
Sexiest Friend: nalina! her sheng cai super good.. haha
Funniest Friend(s): literally everyone i noe is crappy la.. =>
Smartest friends: perry! resident genius in 3L..
Dumbest Person: danicia.. always acting stupid.. haha..
Shyest Friend: hweechen.. take super long time to start getting high
Most boring person: pple who dun noe how to talk?!
Who Do you get advice from: depends lor..
Height: dun wan say.. short jiu shi le.. haha
Date Of Birth: 18 dec 1991.. sch hols! haha
Righty / Lefty : the opposite of danicia's.. hahaha
Shoe Size : 6
Shoe Brand: doesnt really matter la..
Did you Crack any Body Parts: lol..
Siblings: 2 younger sisters.. sadly..
Boy Friend/Girl Friend: hmm.. dun have la
Crush: -_-"'.. dun hav
Liked a Teacher: ymx.. bullshit.
Ran Into a Glass Door: my sister has! i not so stupid
Gone Skinny Dipping: wth.. flashing!
Nearly hit by a car: twice in a day.. hahaha
Ran into a parked car: not so stupid la

Girls Fill Out About Guys (?)
Boxers or Briefs: lol.. not my business..
Tall or Short : taller.. needless to say
Does size matter: erm.. sounds sick and wrong! =P
Six-pack or Muscular Arms: does it matter??
Body or Personality: personality.. its more impt
Ear Pierced or Not : only if you are gay la..
Sporty or Outdoorsy: kinda the same wad..
Good or Bad guy: ??.. wth..

Guys Fill Out on girls
G or hipster undies:
Tall or Short :
Long Hair or Short: i noe wad yj will write! =P
Dark or Light
Light/Dark Hair:
Body or Personality:
Ears Pierced or Not:
Good Girl/Bad Girl:
Hair Up or Down :
Sporty or Classy:

Chicken or Not Afraid : i'm fearless! mwahaha
Coke or pepsi: same thing wad.. i can't find any diff
K.F.C or Mcdonalds: so long as got junk food can liao.. haha
Cats or Dogs : i think kittens and puppies are cuter! =>
Coffee or Tea : caramel frappe!
Eastside or westside: ..
Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
Cake or Cookies: cookies
Purple striped Lime socks or white socks : purple and green?! ew.
Sunset or Sunrise: sunrise.. its the start of sumthing new.. =>
Day or Night: Night..
Lights on or off : ??
Summer or Winter: Winter!! snow city! hahaha

Your favourite
Food: junk food
Holiday destination: hmm.. so long as i am wif pple i like..
Radio Station: nv really listen.. got mp3! =>
Place: anywhere when i am happy
Day of the week: when i can slack!

In The Future
Will you believe in God: erm..
What you want to be when u grow up: erm.. no idea?

Random Questions
Define Love: so long as the person is happy nothing els matters
Bedtime: 11.30pm.. when there is nothing to do
Do you love someone right now: erm.. family.. my best buds.. =>
Do you care about someone: try to care abt everyone i noe lor
Do you think of someone everyday: hmm..
Do you think someone is special: everyone is special in their own way
Finishing time: 11.50am
Date: 22 oct 2006

Pple i want to do dis quiz..
yj danicia mel hc
jazz minyu weneng
aiya.. anyone hu reads dis lor..
hahahahahahahaha..

dance camp is set on 19th dec to 22 dec..
most stuff have been settled liao..
so just turn up and hav fun k?
dis hols gonna be super busy..
got 2J on 2 nov..
and 3L chalet a week b4 dance camp..
plus the screwed up bridging programme..
not to mention dance prac
wa.. can die sia..

all the results back liao..
not very good la.. haix
my amaths and ss din make it
ss the worse lor..
den the others oso not as gd as b4..
next yr must jiayou le..
no more conferencing on the phone..
no more comp access..
and no more slping and slacking!!
hahaha..
i dun think i mean the last part
hahahahahaha..
dance camp may be on 18 dec..
omg.. i dun wan..
the other sec3s are planning to pond me lor
haix.. must run away like siao..
hahahahaha..
night games is gonna be super fun.. whoots!
now post exam activities le..
but den the HCL pple hav to take mock exam
hahahahaha.. so poor thing..
den CL students do "special activities"..
which is playing board games in the PAC
lols.. kinda boring..
but better than doing CL papers!
hahahahaha..

got back 3 papers today..
haiz.. nuthing was wad i expected..
guess wad?
i got into amaths bridging.. whoo hoo..
can skip dance prac le..
though not the way dat i wanted it..
haix..
but still.. i am not too depressed or anything
surprisingly.. hahaha..
when i got back the paper..
hahaha.. i was actually laughing la..
mr chen was bringing us thru the stages of emotions
when we get back the paper..
its denial.. anger.. bargaining.. sumthing.. acceptance
i think i went to acceptance asap..
hahhaahaha..
i dun think you've ever seen sumone
who fails and can actually laugh
its all careless mistakes la..
but hey.. there's no other way but to accept..
wad can you really do la?
its ur own fault dat you din pay att. to ur working..
or 4-1 would nv bcome -3.. hahaha..
i have long accepted the fact that i suck at maths..
bio is the one dat i can't believe..
i din fail dat la..
but i fell short of my own expectations la..
but nvmind.. i hav the previous yr to make up for it..
oh well.. i'll just attend the freaking programme..
no use crying over wad is done..
hahaha.. might as well just move on..
wif life and everything.. haha

exams finally over le!!
whoots.. hahaha
went to the airport to eat ystrday
wif jazz and minyu..
jazz suggested going to popeyes..
walau the food super nice!!.. but oso ex..
den now i am broke liao la.. haha..
shld have shared wif minyu..
we ordered the same thing.. combo 9.. haha..
in the picture its super small la..
den who noes even i couldn't finish.. haha..
but it was nice anyway..
after dat we went tm to buy stuff for wen eng..
hahaha.. her bday was last sunday.. haha..
exam period lehx.. so suay..
hai shi wo xing fu.. haha..

finally!
tml is the last paper le..
hahahha.. emaths..
hope it will be okay..
hahahhaha.. freedom!
i din finish history ystrday..
den english was easy.. =>
ahh.. but today's chem was screwed up
i din memorise the anions test..
den i left it blank la.. bleah..
no choice.. 4 marks gone le..
chinese rocks la.. kinda easier than i expected..
hahahaha.. yays..
after tml 10am..
i am free.. haha.. whoots..
but den the rab still hav to go for MEP..
hahaha.. so tml cannot go out.. sighx..
if wan oso hav to wait 3 hrs.. omg..
hahahhaha.. so glad i quit..

yay!
super happy..
ss bio amaths and physics finish le!
wa.. suan shi du guo nan guan..
lolx.. next week de subjects not so bad..
hahahahha..
though i think amaths is gonna be a screwup
and physics.. i forgot definition of work done!!
nvmind.. hahaha..
at least i finished it..
when the person was like.. pls stop writing..
i literally threw my pen on the table.. haha..
NO MORE PHYSICS TILL NEXT YR!
i love it sia.. hahahha
tml is history and english..
den chem and chinese..
den emaths..
whoots.. FREEDOM!!
hahahahaha..

today was super fun la..
we played captainsball again.. haha
random grp arrangements la.. as usual..
actually today dun need to play de..
mr chua let us study during PE..
but seriously la.. i wouldn't want to..
its a time to relax lor.. haha
screaming session as usual..
hahaha..
everytime we got the ball
den pple would be screaming
i damn zi high la..
jumping and screaming all over the place.
hahahahaha..
jazz vivianna and aurial oso..
den mengjit and weneng collided wif each other la..
they both trying to get the ball frm shimin..
den they din see properly
now weneng has dis scratch on her chin or sumthing
den mengjit's teeth is hurting..
haix.. so violent sia..
hahaha.. deb dunno frm where came dis frisbee..
the 2 'goalkeepers'
jiesi and adeline
were throwing it frm 1 end to the other..
kinda distracting la.. but i guess they were sianded..
hahahahaha..
it really took my mind off the exams..
hahahaha..
kk.. go mug le.. jiayou.
8 days to end of EOYS.
LOLX.. haha

tml might be the last day i'll be able to breathe properly
haha.. joking only..
omg
just left wif 1 day to EOYs!!
i'm going to collapse anytime la..
got 8 subjects to prepare for lor..
though english is okay la..
but it doesn't make things easier..
i damn scared..
at least i dun hav art anymore..
yup dats right.
i decided to quit le.
bcoz i dun think i hav enuf time to spare..
my maths needs more practice la.
i can't sit dere drawing animals wad..
too much on my mind to draw a straight line now
let alone a distorted rabbit.. haha
even though i feel kinda bad for dropping it halfway
at least i dun hav to sit in the art room for 3 hrs again..
hahaha.. anyway
jiayou for exams pple..
rmb.. dere is alot to look forward to after EOYs!
so mug hard for the time being..
dne enjoy it afterwards..
hahaha.. =>