Tuesday, March 31, 2009

OLTC was not what i expected.

i still keep asking myself where have i failed.
i still keep asking myself where i went wrong.

but. i also seek the answer to what i can do to improve refresher on thursday.

hopefully, we can all start on a fresh clean slate.

and. thanks all who comforted me.
i really felt appreciated and loved by all your hugs and encouragements.

<3 dakota, and those who comforted me.
<3 main comms, for reassuring me.
<3 logistics team, for making OLTC possible.

<3 mini zkm loads, for lending me your shoulder and picking me up.

Friday, March 20, 2009

happy birthday levono !

she probably wouldnt be seeing this, but for fun.
i'll just write this down anyway. (:

as usual, went down to school.
today was half day for me though.
didnt do much; typed in and rephrased the first aid troubleshooting procedures.
collected money from some participants,
and discussed smth really v v confidental. eg. whether eugene is really ghey or not. LOL

okay i was just kidding.
but whether eugene IS or ISNT ghey. ahem.

we shall see larhs, horh.

my boss was so kind as to spare me from smelling durian again today.
apparently someone recommended someone to drink DURIAN BUBBLE TEA.
yes, durian flavoured. with the flesh of the fruit instead of pearls.

at first, still can tahan.
1 sample cup only marhs. everyone tried and said it tasted good.
but dont look at me !

i didnt go near the cup. ;x

then then, the next day !
FOUR people bought the durian bbt.

first was nadiah. she popped the cup in front of me.
hokay, still nvm. can tahan.

xx saw i v cham larhs. say he wun open his first, till later.
at that time i was feeling relieved, but janson walked into the room happily slurping.
and sat somewhere near xx, to my left

hokay. NVM. still can tahan.

at this moment clarissa walked in and handed an open cup of durian bbt to eugene.
fyi. he was sitting to my right.

xx burst out laughing, and so did the others who had noticed my already red nose. =/

so i told my dear boss tt he could start drinking alr cuz it doesnt make a difference.
the whole log room smelt of durian alr. and so did the corridor.

oh. and eugene further improved the quality of the air by burping durian scented air.


in addition to the no-durians-today-cuz-we're-getting-heaty-and-eugene-cant-poop,
my boss let me have the day off.
so boss. thankyou. ;)

wanted to rush for a movie with mini zkm; marley and me.
but then his tcher called, and explained tt he wanted to meet mini zkm today.
smth regarding the O level maths paper registration.

apparently his results are not bad, and his tcher hopes he can get a O lvl cert for maths.
so we went down to his school instead (:

i was disappointed initially,
but your future is much more impt than a movie tt i can watch online anytime.
so dont feel guilty. okayys?

suddenly rmbered tt nazzymully and yun were at xfire.
so both of us went there to surprise both of them. :D

nazzymully's eyes nearly popped. AHAHAHAHA.
and yun? he got his chair shaken for the MES word. =="

eighteen chefs for dinner today!
this time i had creamy mango sauce + sausage + mushrooms + chicken slices
wao. the mango is xiang de lorhs ~ xD

went suntec convention center for F&B fair.
christ mei was working there for her aunt maarhs.
her mei was there accompanying her too. jojo. ;x
she unloaded a pile of brochures on me and mini zkm to help give out. hahas.

poor mini zkm. he unintentionally called this auntie ' sir ' and thus.
earned a session of cramp causing laughter from us. :DD

had fun though, crist and jojo tried to tempt me with liquor chocolates.
they are another les pair tt i know who are so ghey, okay.

ahxiao and kukunut is the ultimate pairing. <3

after tt we went to buy my 2 pairs of fbts.
straight cut, not curve cut.
i dunwan to be smexyaye or whatever and risk thigh exposure like others. =/

mrt-ed home !
no long bus ride today, cuz we left too late. aww.

okay and now.
i want to sleep but i'm not sure if i can.
cuz my hmwork for today is nt done.
cuz i'm not sure of the changes
cuz i went out
and cuz of tt i dont know the exact updated details.
cuz xx is alr aslp, i think.

which is actually. all my fault cuz i procrastinated today and started late. ><

alright i shall go sleep.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

i feel so guilty for causing you to be like this.
sorry tt i made you feel alone.
sorry tt i neglected you again.

i promise you, after this mess is over,
i'll make it up to you (:
i have been going back to school everyday again.
my life is currently all about my love burden ____, OLTC.

its commencing in arnd SEVEN DAYS.
and i dont know if i shld feel nervous or excited abt it.

when everything seems to be going smoothly,
then someone asks me a question and messes my confidence entirely.
i think i'm too inexperienced to handle this. :(

cuz i have nvr planned smth like this before, let alone be such an impt role.

but still. since i've made it so far.
i might as well run the final lap the best i can,
and just hope tt everything will hold together like it should.

survive OLTC you ass.

oh yeahs. these few days, i've been going without lunch.
just breakfast if i'm nt late, and dinner at night.

its nt tt i'm trying to lose weight.
i bloody hell lost 5kg alr, and i dont aim to lose more.

its just that, i dont really have the mood to eat when i'm in school.
and that i'm trying to save cash for idk what.

i just feel as if i lack cash larhs ! ;x

thanks mini zkm, for buying me a meal tho i refused. ._.
thanks shirlee, for offering me your mcwings, hahas !

and thanks the rest who are worried.
but i'm freaking okay okay. :D

Sunday, March 15, 2009

extremely tired after working today !
frm 9am - 9pm on my feet. whew.
i think my soles are ready to split up with me.

well. at least its for my parents. ;x

mundane routine of washing plates and finding change for customers.
and i peeled of 2 chunks of my nails along with the potato skins.
the middle finger hurts cuz the flesh is exposed.

reminds me of smth..
" oh, my god. i think i need a manicure ~ " LOL !

ohh yeahs.
saw keely and tt guy she was rumored to be with during css.
i dont rmb his name. and i only realised he was in css cuz i saw keely ._.

therefore no starstruck oomg reactions coming from me. hahahas.
jh : ' got such person mehs '

___ you suck. no one rmbs you ;x

okayys. random sia.
going sleep. tml having briefing for OLTC.

and i have to report at 9AM OKAY. ):

Saturday, March 14, 2009

went out with jinghui for our SHOPPING SPREE on thursday ! :D
i bought a black skirt, eyeliner, and tt's all.
poor me, no cash to spend. ;x
jh spent alot more, but she was satisfied with her haul.

its been so damn long since i have been out shopping with my dearest sister. x)

the kukunut doesnt know her directions.
we got lost diverted twice larhs !
first time was on the mrt.
second was on the bus.

last time i'm gonna let her lead the way, i swear.

went out with mini zkm as well, to pre-celebrate our 16th months.
cuz well. i have to go back to school on monday marhs. bleh.
but never mind ! most impt thing is tt we spent time tgt also.
our walking day, hahas.

we walked from central to clarke quay to funan to city hall to marina. HAHA.
had pastamania, whoo. satisfied MY craving. :D

and and he accompanied me to buy my black bag oso.
23bucks for a small bag, but i loved it. buckle detail FTW.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

release of exam results today. via the ever scary sudden sms ;x

i wont say i was satisfied with the outcome.
cuz there is an obvious indication tt my grades have dropped since last sem.
and i can probably guess why as well.

but. i guess tt wont be a problem soon. =/

anywho. welcome ahxiao back frm overseas. :D
i'm kinda surprised she didnt bomb the plane. AHAHA.

i feel so exhausted today.
cuz i was working for my parents at their stall today you see. ;x

this fucking JC student and her bespectacled geek lower sec friend pissed me and jh off.
she kept turning arnd to look, then both of us diao her. hahahahs.

like. whatthefuckinghell is there to see larhs.
dont jealous we no need go school cuz its our goddamn holidays leh.

boohoo for you.

i feel vulgar today.^^_l_

and like i promised. peektures.

random shot of the circular staircase.
i want smth like this at home.

so tt i can sit on the railings like a twisty slide. :D

the cute cat called.. er.

or was it navin?

anywho. its one of the two adorable cats with biased names at the class chalet. ;p
the other gray one kept running away, so boohoo no photo ):
why is the name biased ? lemme provide a picture i found in my phone.
i think tt was taken by amy.

thumb sucking jovan. tt's why ;x.
qai. :D

he had this glass with him, filled with coke. but it looked like a whisky glass.
and and we said he looked like a homeless guy eating his food and drinking. LOL

me and shirlee
inspired by an anyhow taken photo tt somehow showed this zoomed in part of my face.
me and shirlee decided to, um. take random shots and get people to guess?

mine is pretty obvious. ;x

and sok. you missed out on the fun ):

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

One day, when I was a freshman in high school,
I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.

His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books.
I thought to myself,
'Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd.'

I had quite a weekend planned, so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.
As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.
They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms,tripping him so he landed in the dirt.
His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him...

He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes.
My heart went out to him.

So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses.
I saw a tear in his eye.
As I handed him his glasses, I said, 'Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives. '
He looked at me and said, 'Hey thanks!'

There was a big smile on his face.
It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.

I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.
As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before..
He said he had gone to private school before now.
I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.

We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.
He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.
I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends. He said yes.
We hung out all weekend.

The more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same.
Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.
I stopped him and said,
'Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday! '

He just laughed and handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends..
When we were seniors we began to think about college.
Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke.
I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.

He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship..

Kyle was valedictorian of our class.
I teased him all the time about being a nerd.
He had to prepare a speech for graduation.
I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak.

Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great.
He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.
He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.
He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.
Boy, sometimes I was jealous!

Today was one of those days.
I could see that he was nervous about his speech.
So, I smacked him on the back and said, 'Hey, big guy, you'll be great!'
He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. ' Thanks.'

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began

'Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.
Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends....
I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.
I am going to tell you a story.'

I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the first day we met.
He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.
He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later.
He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.

'Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable..'
I heard the gasp go through the crowd, as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.

I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.
Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions..
With one small gesture you can change a person's life.
For better or for worse.

God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.
Look for God in others.

'Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.' There is no beginning or end..
Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift.

instead of spamming people thru mail, i shall leave this touching story here. :D

class bbq was fun, too bad sok couldnt make it. :(

was waiting for shirlee to reach, then then i called qai to ask for directions.
he instead told me tt he sees me somewhere and asked me to look up.
ta-daa, i saw gina and qai waving at me from the mrt abv. LOL

qai : " dont worry abt it, we're coming to get you ! " ROFL.

photos, shall update tml.
at the moment, i just wanna hit the damn pillow and get something called SLEEP.

which i have been lacking since end of exams start of holidays. ;x

Thursday, March 05, 2009

your eye bags are getting magnificent
you always doze off on the phone
you look so tired everytime i see you
i know you've lost alot of weight. i can see.

i know. i'm feeling tired too..
but.. what? how?

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

3rd day of meetings; 9am to 9pm.
i'm exhuasted mentally alr, but at least we're making headway (:
xx says to chiong all the freaking way, then relax and just wait for OLTC ;x

but i dont think tt's possible, heh.
cuz we'd still be worrying and making little changes.

its kinda stressful when you're given such a post for a first time experience. =/

thanks for understanding me, mini zkm.
though we had problems compromising at first,
but i'm really glad tt we could work it out.

sorry for being such an absentee girlf these days. ):
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