the mental barrier is there alr.
i really dont know if i can do it anymore.

whenever i think back to day 4, i cant help but feel scared.

i know everyone is comforting me and assuring me,
why are the people closest to me not understanding how i feel?

my parents think i'm idling my time away in school.
they think i am slacking and having fun.
they question where i really go when i stay overnight.

cuz they think its too frequent to be real.

and, i am really sorry i dont have time for you anymore.
i dont want to make too many empty promises..

too many..

i pray that i have the every bloody ounce of strength to carry thru week0.