5th year x gardens by the bay!

almost every anniversary, we must go somewhere new.
1st year was at Singapore Flyer
last year was at Universal Studios.
this year was at Gardens By The Bay ! :D

i guessed the location as soon as he reminded me to bring a camera HAHA.

thank goodness he told me lor!
because i ended up snapping photos of almost everything.
took a total of 300 plus pictures there :D

other than the heritage gardens, we went to the flower dome conservatory.
we were happy to pay 12 bucks for air-con on such a hot day. hahah!

the flower dome features mainly mediterranean and australian plants,
and in addition there are floral displays which change with seasons.
this time it was autumn when we visited!
so there was a v pretty harvest theme, and everything was orange, yellow and red.
simply amazing. :D

first real bouquet in 5 years. hahaha :D

  

dragonfly walk and OCBC skyway.

 

 

the one on the right is damn cool. looks like a metal flower !

 

 

the true flowers are much more purple and striking in real life; photos dont do them justice.

 

cant help but think of cross-fertilisation and genetics when i see these hybrids
i'm such a geek :3

 

 

autumn harvest. spot the cheeken staring at YOU. :B

 

actually i'm in love with daisies. :D

 

teeko ahpok and emo me. HAHAHA.

  

thank you ahpok for such an awesome surprise! :D

watched ah boys to men on the same day too.
i love the parts where they reminisced about the old army days omg.
ahpok was also v nostalgic when they showed all the tekong shit (:
cant wait for part two!

love is just so simple.

this post has the consistency of mashed potatoes.
read: very mushy.

only continue if you can take it. HAHAH.
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its been five years since we've been together, ahpok and me.
the journey has not been easy,
cause we've had to fight our way through.
we faced our personal demons, learnt how to complement and contrast each other.
and most importantly, this year we overcame one of the most important barriers ever.
specifically my family's acceptance. (:

till now i still cant believe how easy it turned out.
my mom even sides him now wtf ! always asking me not to bully him :x
but whats a bf for if not to bully? mwahahah :D

and its kinda amazing, the way we met.
who knows that i'll ever meet my soulmate through.. maple?
and to think that he lives so nearby too.
yes thats the official story, more than the mutual friends crap i've been telling people LOL.
didnt want people to judge us more than they alr do, cause of the race thing.
but now i'm no longer caring. (:

past the stage where i feel conscious of people staring and pointing at us.
you people dont affect me anymore because all i know,
is that having him beside me is the luckiest thing ever.

i love the way that he is always patient with me.
being my alarm clock is not easy, EVER.
he is the one who calls me till i finally answer.
his highest record ever was 25 missed calls WTF.
i honestly admit that my own record for him is a measly 10.
cause i'd get sooooo pissed off i give up calling LOL.

i love the way that he lets me indulge in retail therapy.
he's one of my advisors when it comes to deciding on my buys, heheh.
and he even pushes me into my favourite store; KissJane. like seriously.
BUT he does sometimes remind me to exercise some control though.
yet he never really tries to stop me from buying when he knows i like it. (:

i love the way he's always looking out for my interest.
he does stupid things though, like ___________________________. ahpok you know this!
sometimes i cant believe he can be so stupidly selfless.
yet i'm touched by the way he can love me more than i deserve.

i love the way he never controls me.
he doesnt complain when i'm too busy to meet him, like during OLTC/OCP times
neither does he try to limit the amount of time i spend with my clique.
omg best thing is, he even lets them have the nearest saturday to my upcoming birthday.

i love the way he encourages me.
i love how he can read my mind, and vice versa.

in short, i love the way he loves me.

i'll be your shelter, i'll be your storm.
i'll make you shiver, i'll keep you warm.
whatever weather, baby i'm yours.
be your forever, be your fling,
baby i will be your everything. (:

like a G6

like seriously i havent felt this relaxed and happy since dont know when.

few hours ago i was feeling so screwed cause mom got injured,
and me myself kena bad cramps. on exam day.
like goodness knows what will happen next.

then i took a deep breath, and stepped into the exam hall.
1 hour 30 mins later, stepped out feeling like the happiest shit in the world. :D

cause even though its temporary, i'm free from school!
no lecture till monday. and its only thursday. :D
no need to copy notes like a typewriter.
no need to memorise my stupid factors of combinatorial control liao. teehee.

this might seem like a trivial matter to others,
but it really feels like a stone kena lifted and thrown away.
cause i have so little time for myself when i have both school and work.
even few days of freedom seems limitless to me. x)

supper with levon teo made it more awesome.
poor bimb couldnt make it cause she got test tmr. :x
satisfied my craving for custard bun! hehehe.
and of course our forever essential gossip. HAHAH.

looking forward to 5th year anniversary with ahpok tmr ! :D

下雨天了怎么办，我好想你

such a rainy, grey evening.
and some thoughts made my day additionally gloomy.
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it was such a simple conversation between my colleagues.
adele was talking about how her daughter loves fish porridge.

and i thought of my ahgong.

he disliked fish porridge, especially after he fell sick and his taste changed.
due to the tumor pressing against one of the vocal nerves, he also couldnt speak.
ahma didnt realise it yet; she thought fish porridge would be good for him.
and who can blame her?
she has to undertake the mental and physical stress of taking care of her frail husband.
its not easy at all.

ahgong couldnt finish it almost all the time.
one bowl was all he could take. and sometimes less than that.
ahma was so upset whenever he started shaking his head, indicating he had enough.
she felt so helpless, cause he barely ate anything.

i happened to be feeding him one day, on a monday.
i remember because the market is usually closed and there was no fish.
so he had carrot and potato porridge.

i thought of this brilliant idea to place smaller amounts into a bowl.
and you know, if he saw that he could finish "one" bowl,
he'd be encouraged to eat more.

and ahgong did. (:

i kaypoh asked him if he liked the porridge; he nodded.
then i asked him if he preferred fish or this kind.
hahah, i can still recall his face when he heard fish porridge. 皱眉头 ttm!

from then on, ahma never tried to make him eat fish porridge alr. :B

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i went back to sgh last wednesday.
flooded by a torrent of memories, as usual.

seeing NCC, at first i felt really upset.
its not a good place to have to walk into.

but i recalled, how ahgong took my intern pass and clipped it to his shirt.
how he asked his oncologist if he wanted to join us for bak kut teh.
how he loves to drink the starfruit juice there.
how he found it really silly to go there for a 10 minute radiotherapy every day for 3 weeks.
seriously! he goes in there, takes out his shirt, 5 minutes later can go home liao. hahah.
i can never forget the shocked expression he gave when we said he could go home. :D

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its been almost two years since ahgong has left.
yet small details can still trigger off a string of memories.

we lose our loved ones and we learn to accept and move on.
but we never forget. ever.

what is love?

L, is for the way you look at me.
O, is for the only one i see.
V, is very very extraordinary.
E, is even more than anyone that you adore.

love is when you feel really happy, blessed and lucky.
its one of the best feelings.
like nothing bad can happen, nothing can go wrong.

but it can sometimes be overrated.

love can be materialistic.
love can be blind.
love can be stupid and stubborn.
love can hurt us the way nothing else can.

so why do some of us crave love so much?
are the possible consequences worth it?

i guess, everything has two sides. its just how one chooses to view it. (:

for me, i'd summarize everything in one word.
love is .. sacrifice.

not asking for anything except for the one i love to be truly happy.
i dont need roses or any gifts.
just his smile will suffice. (:


Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

skinny vs glutton

there are some times where i feel conscious about myself.
like i see those really skinny girls and think,
wah damn their arms/legs/tummy really is skinny one siaa.
and i start thinking about how i stand in comparison.

i'll be thinking thoughts like,
wah i need to start exercising everyday.
should start jogging, do situps, pushups, etc.

then i think about controlling my diet..

and then all hope is lost HAHAHA.
seriously the moment i think about cutting down on food i'm like, hell no. NO. LOL.
cause seriously ! food is so essential to me.
once a year fasting with ahpok during ramadan can torture me liao.
imagine cutting down on my food.. omg i will die before i lose weight.

i'm already not eating as much leh.
breakfast is usually bread/bao.
lunch is.. super unhealthy hahah. instant soup + bread/biscuits. life of a broke uni student. ._.
dinner is more heavy, either mom's cooking or i eat out.
so tell me, how to cut down?
anymore i'll be suffering from gastritis first, not anorexia :x

i guess the true way to control is not by portion but by food group bahs.
not too much carbs before sleep.
not too much fried food.
not too much sweet stuff. not a problem cause i dont have a sweet tooth :B
eat more vegetables and fruits!
omg i know i need to incorporate more of these into my system. :x

but yeah, i guess i wont be losing weight anytime soon :D

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went Buffet Town with second aunt and uncle and jh on thursday!
(omg this is the kind of gluttony i'm talking about)

aunt wanted to treat us for our birthdays :D

food was really fresh and yums, but variety was so so only.

 

me and jh.  2nd uncle waving his lobsters. and thats 2nd aunt !
any resemblance? hahaha.
i think we look alot like our aunts cause we're very close, they literally brought us up (:
i have many things to thank them for.

 Buffet Town at Raffles City, B1!

My first try with oysters. these are really very fresh and there's no fishy seafood smell!

love it especially with tabasco sauce and lemon.

penne pasta with tomatoes, bacon and mushrooms.

okok cause some of the pasta was undercooked :x

 inari sushi and rainbow maki !

my vegetable teppanyaki.

actually supposed to choose mussels/pork/squid to pair with but i chose neither. :x

seafood galore!

fresh sashimi. undoubtedly jh's favourite.

"these are so fresh! so gooooood!"

one of the few times she gushes over food LOL.

 tempura. er disappointing cause it was cold and flour was too thick.

dory fish, roasted spice chicken, potatoes and mushroom pizza.

when i saw people carrying this i grabbed jh and went: "chawanmushi!!!"

turned out to be soup wtf. ._.

happy dinner :D

unleash the shopaholic !

you know, when blogshops first appeared i was like, meh.

who wants to buy clothes which you cant try?

and i had many doubts about the reliability of delivery and quality.

who knows i would become such a (blog)shopaholic? :D

seriously i think i only started caring about clothes when i started poly.

and when i found a shopping buddy in LIM SHIRLEE. hahaha.

similar taste and we usually give constructive comments. 

bugis street is our ever favorite target. :D

we're taking part in this bugis st bff contest, and WERE leading.

but sadly not anymore; a pair managed to get 300 plus votes overnight. 

wtf what sorcery. :x

anyway ! 

there was a warehouse sale last sunday, featuring thevelvetdolls, megagamie and lilypirates.
TVD and MGG are two blogshops which i frequently kena tempted by.
and their apparel are usually priced in the $25 - $30 range,
while for the sale its gonna be crazy cheap, $5 - $20! (!)
so made this very last minute decision to go with ah bimb :D

omggggg super crazy the queue when we reached at 11am.
stretch and turn AND u-turn wtf!
waited a total of 4 hours, just for 30 mins of shopping.

and by shopping i meant crazy digging through the piles of stocks and grabbing armfuls.
alr discuss strategy; just aim by color and material, take and decide later!
we only sorted and picked after time was up. HAHAH.

so first day haul was 1 denim top, 2 pairs of pants and 2 pairs of shorts, for $65!
the top and one of the shorts i bought them for jh.
teehee quite satisfied but kind of think it was wasted cause i didnt grab any tops.
and one of the pants didnt fit me cause they didnt tag the size properly. ._.

so when they extended the sale by another one day i was like very very tempted. HAHAH.
you would have thought 4 hours of queuing was enough to deter me from going again,
but yeah somehow i'm really mad enough. hahaha.

ahpok was my queuing buddy this time!
both of us coincidentally had off day so this was kinda fated. #excuse ;p
we reached 20 mins before it started, and thankfully the queue wasnt long.
it fact we made it for the second batch. ^.^V

and upon entering i was super excited!
cause i saw this blazer bimb wanted for sometime.
ahahah she tempted but nvr buy, out of stock online liao then regret not buying.
so.. *grabs* and it was for $25 only ! original price was $38 okay.

for me, this time i was more selective cause i alr knew what i was aiming for. :D

so total haul was 4 tops for $25. hehehe.
and a photo with tvd's pretty owner, yina! :D

i was quite impressed with tvd's service because their staff were very friendly !
despite the mess they were quite clear about stock availability.
and they'd take the initiative to ask you which sizing, even suggest which fit best. (Y)

so in the happy aftermath, i'm going on a shopping ban for the rest of the month. hahah.
other than christmas gifts i'm not gonna buy anymore clothes. :x

oh and did i mention, i'm getting more used to my short hair !
i no longer dread washing and drying it, cause it takes lesser time now heheh.
and thankfully the fringe is alr starting to grow. :D

for evil or for worse. :B

you know the rule where smoking is banned in certain areas and such?

its an awesome idea, but it also causes groups of smokers to crowd directly outside.

near entrances and all over the walkways.

and it sucks cause all the smoke is bloody concentrated. >:/

seriously, have you stepped outside of plaza sing/cineleisure ever smelling fresh air? :x

so as usual i was complaining and wishing that bombs would drop on them.

like one fell swoop, boom and no more smokers. *evil grin*

er and then ahpok commented: "you fail as a scientist leh. 

bombs drop innocent people also will die.

with your knowledge, isnt it better to create a virus which specifically targets smokers?"

MY BOYFRIEND WANTS ME TO CREATE A BIOWEAPON. :OO

and i was stunned into thinking; omg so stupid, why didnt i even think of that? :x

not that i want to really kill smokers la.

maybe just make their lifes worse with every cigarette? 

the higher the nicotine in their body, the worse the symptoms will get.

you get the drift. :B

but i digress. 

the point is, like seriously i'm not putting into application what i have learnt.

and it makes me rethink about alot of things.

纸上谈兵 (?)

haircut + kissjane preview!

my life is filled with a few drastic hair changes. :D

after i graduated from ahs, i went with my aunt t her hairdresser's.

and i told him to just cut anything he wanted.

got an asymmetrical bob :D

somewhere during first year in poly, i decided t dye my hair.

premature graying inherited from laobu. :x

and instead of going for the safer colors, i went for red highlights all over the head.

till now i'm still trying to get my desired red hair :D

and, i snipped off my super long and thick hair today!

it was a record of 21.5 inches est. and now its only 14.5 inches est. HAHAHA.

such a spur of the moment decision also.



like some female ghost ._.

took half day for my hair appt and had a last minute impromptu lunch with cliff before tt :D
its always awesome to have subway when he's around cause i can kope all the cheese mwahaha.

went to Mahogany at dhoby ghaut, cause i bought a groupon deal for them.

consultation + treatment + haircut + wash and blow for $38 :D

the service was damn awesome, no shitty attitude just cause you're a coupon buyer.

my stylist was Candice, and she was very easy to talk to.
other than asking for my desired length,
she also took effort to understand how i would usually style my hair.

which is like no style because i'm the laziest person on earth :x
at work, tie, finish work, let down. thats it HAHAH.

so she decided not to cut too many layers so that tying wont be a problem. thoughtful right!

but she stunned me cause she curled my hair. totally unexpected!
i fell asleep while she was blow drying, and next moment i woke up to wavy hair. :O
and erm. its really not my style. hahahah.
but it was okay cause it straightened out slightly awhile later. :D

and yeah that my fringe is damn toot cause its kinda short.
but whats new, i always kena fringe-astrophe. :x

the before, and after. me and Candice!
and i managed to meet pok for awhile before meeting bimb. he says i mushroom head. :x

overall, left Mahogany feeling (ALOT) more lightheaded and satisfied. :D
i kinda miss my long hair, especially cause i've been keeping it for more than a year.
and through all the hair dyeing and sun and stress, many people still find it v healthy looking

but i dont regret this cause its a good change, heheh. and it will always grow back!

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purposely picked blogshop items t wear, heheh.
thevelvetdolls' denim crawford blazer,
the tinsel rack's summer love hws,
and mgplabel's mi lady top which i won from another giveaway recently. :D

met bimb for the KissJane preview event at Vivo!
won the tickets via my ever favourite TTR ♥
there were more people than i expected at the preview, guess cause we picked the best time.
and by best time i meant when everybody was starting their friday night after work/school. :x
but i guess it's definitely better than tmr's crowd. you can just imagine x_x

saw some bloggers at the event, namely dawn yang and the owners of megagamie.
DY was there to promote her own blogshop, and errr.. she has quite a sharp nose. plastic(?)
the megagamie sisters are both damn skinny! and they look alike ._.
didnt take photos with them though, not starstruck enough LOL.
but i would have wanted to take photos with TTR's team if they were around though !
such a pity they werent. :x

total kill was.. 2 only HAHAH.
but happy cause i aimed those items for quite awhile liao.
TTR's Lollipop hws in black, and TDC's sleeveless buttoned down shirt. :D

dinner and gossip at jia xiang mian before heading home!
had this mini scare cause there was a delay due to track fault .______________.
but heng la, did reach home without having to break windows ;p

dreams

a dream is a wish your heart makes, when you're fast asleep.
in dreams you will lose your heartaches, whatever you wish for you keep
have faith in your dreams and someday, your rainbow will come smiling through

no matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing

the dream that you wish will come true

who doesnt have dreams?

since young i've dreamed of being a teacher or a doctor.
there were others too; paramedic, nurse, cook.
but these two were my real and still valid considerations.
actually thinking about it, 3 out of 5 are linked to healthcare, hahah.

family influence is a v strong factor for me :B
i've both heard and witnessed my uncle and aunts' experiences at work.
it inspired me because they helped people at critical moments with their professionalism.
its definitely not about the glory that the job title gives, definitely not.

but this dream is not easy to achieve.

the thing is, i got back my previous module's results today evening, and was happy like crazyyy.
cause with this decisive grade, my GPA finally meets the requirements for Aus medicine school.(!)
at least at this point of time la. :x

so i told myself,
i really need to focus and put in more effort to not just maintain, but try pull it even higher.
and its not going to be easy cause i've heard year three modules are gonna be very taxing.
but i will try my very best; that i promise myself and those who believe in me. :)

and then the very happy me decided to check local med schools to view their entry requirements.
because well, overseas med school will cost a bomb.
local is still bombastic but on a smaller scale. so just see see la.

which was kind of a wrong move. cause it demoralised me quite abit.

seems like smaller bombs has more requirements to fulfill.

lets compare, shall we?

both are postgraduate courses, and require MCAT entrance exams and an interview.
and thats were the similarities end.

Aus MS states the minimum GPA required.
Local MS? omg they dont even state. they just tell you outstanding achievements.
plus testimonials/ reference letters from 3 - 5 mentors highlighting capabilities are needed.

dafuq.

i'm an okay student; i started out really well, but slipped along the way during sec 3.
its kind of a regret for me; i shouldnt have gotten distracted, shouldnt have gotten demoralised.
i should have carried on mugging and not cared about how my marks paled in comparison to others.
i should have continued being a geek :B

i dont regret where it has taken me though,
because i came out a stronger person with my own (sometimes stubborn) principles.
and i've come to meet some of the most important people in my life right now (:

but i just cant help thinking how it would have been less of a war if i hadnt slipped.
how things would have gone if i had performed as what was expected.
how i would have proven my uncle right.
he actually mentioned that he thought i had the potential to go MS, and take over his clinic one day.

it sucks to know that i proved him wrong ):

i can only thank goodness my parents never blamed me for sliding.
they've always trusted us to do our best, to make whatever we can of our abilities. (:

but okay, enough of the what ifs and should haves.
- switches on positive thinking -

when you wish upon a star, makes no difference who you are
anything your heart desires will come to you
if your heart is in your dream, no request is too extreme
when you wish upon a star, as dreamers do

must must must grab hold of this opportunity when it is still possible.

must must remember that it is never too late; there's still hope.

must achieve my dream no matter how hard it may take. :D

jiayou jingting! xD

happy birthday Wayne!

wahahah the second youngest in our clique to turn 21 !
wishing you all the best in everything you do,
and most importantly, stay happy and healthy (:
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awesome day spent with clique.
some minor hiccups in the plan but everything worked out in the end.
and wayne managed to complete our very evil dare - hugging 3 people :B
the staff at tom's palette was quite steady enough to help, hahah.

speaking of tom's palette, zomg their flavors for halloween is so unique!
there was toxic matter - some blue yellow potion looking thing.
and RIP Red Velvet - they placed sticks and chocolate spiders t deco.
both tasted quite nice but i loved RIP more :D

k session was damn fun too,
zomg seriously gangnam style seems like the tradition for us now. :x
and teoheng might be cheap,
but i prefer places like k suites or topone cause the sound system is way better.

just a simple but fulfilling day like this makes me damn happy,
really, quality time is priceless. (:

Made of Stone - Evanescence

Speak your mind, like I care
I can see your lips moving
I've just learned not to hear

Don't waste your time

Its never enough for you, baby
Don't want to play your game anymore
no matter what you say
I'm all out of love for you, baby
and now that I've tried everything
I'll numb the pain till I am made of stone

Take your time
I'm not scared
Make me everything you need me to be
so the judgement seems fair

Don't waste your time

Its never enough for you, baby
Don't want to play your game anymore
no matter what you say
I'm all out of love for you, baby
and now that I've tried everything

I'll numb the pain till I am made
to tear out my heart
for the way that it feels
I will still remember when you've long forgotten me

Its never enough for you, baby
Don't want to play your game anymore
no matter what you say
I'm all out of love for you, baby
and now that I've tried everything
I'll numb the pain till I am made of stone

satisfaction

awesome max saturday cause i managed to accomplish some tasks. :D

its a surprise; all i can say is, its a productive evening :B

struck aston's off my list of places to try!
initially planned on going everything with fries at katong.
but two people psycho-ed and tempted my inner aunty.
they say astons more worth it, and nice. so okay steady, switch.

my wallet says thank you and my tummy says its happy.
now i'm in love with the ice chocolate and baked potato. hahaha !

and satisfied my craving for awfully chocolate's hei ice cream too!
the bittersweet dark chocolate is absolute heaven.
kinda pricey, but okay la, to indulge once in awhile. :D

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my beloved beats earpiece (which came with my HTC) died today,
super sad cause this means no more good quality bass.
cant believe it spoilt so suddenly, and quite fast also cause its not even a year.
this is despite the care and concern i show it . :x

got myself a replacement - audio technica's cube earpiece.
considering if i should get heartbeats v.2 by lady gaga.
21st birthday present for myself. :D

detest

de·test
verb (used with object)
to feel abhorrence of; hate; dislike intensely.

each person has their own piss-off point.
we're all different, and we are entitled to our own point of view.

so what do i detest?

fake people.

never judge a book by its cover.
seriously, really.

someone who seems friendly may be the most lonely person.
having many friends does not signify anything. at all.
not unless you true to every single one of them.

your promises sound so steady, so onz,
but they are all but empty words.
what are words if you dont really mean them when you say them?

you smile, you laugh and you are so damn nice it seems unreal.
maybe it really is.

why is there a need to lie, to act, to deceive?
is it really that hard to be honest?

white lies i can understand.
but how pure are your real intentions?

corruption

i rmb on one of our trips to genting, something major happened at the customs.
pearlyn's passport kena denied by the immigration officer at the msia side.
cause it still had her baby photo, and she didnt update cause it was one year more to the expiry.

jh tried explaining to the woman, who was unsympathetic and didnt listen, and she got pissed mad.
seriously, if singapore immigration let us through, who are you to disagree?!
things got to the point where ahsai had to go up to the main office to see their in-charge.

i accompanied her there, and the in-charge kept asking ahsai for her IC.
which she obviously didnt have cause she wasnt even 16 yet.
she did have her ezlink card, thank goodness, which showed her IC no. and pic.
but you know what. the woman refused and said it wasnt enough proof !
like wtf, i put both the passport and ezlink side by side to show her the IC no.s are same.
and she still insisted that ahsai go back to singapore.

think i relentlessly persisted for 20 mins before they reluctantly agreed to let her pass.
i still had to tell them tt ahsai's parents were overseas, she no home to go back to (LOL), etc.
like really, why is it that they refuse to accept a logical explaination,
even when i have proof of ahsai's identity in the form of her ezlink card?

and now it suddenly dawned on me.
they were probably expecting something from us.
something that we might give in the moment of desperation. $_$


Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?

who will guard the guards?

perseverance

attended Wayne's commissioning parade today with cliff.
both of them are officially officers now !
feeling so happy and proud for them,
cause they went through nine months of shit and came out shining. literally :D

to lead, to excel, to overcome.
with perseverance, anything can be possible.

how very true (:
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it takes a certain kind of stubbornness, a streak of strength,
to insist upon something that you deem worth holding on to.

my job is kinda shit cause patients pick on me and i kena maligned a lot.
patients refuse to listen, take my strictness for attitude.
but my colleagues make it worthwhile cause they are awesome people to work with.
we protect and take care of each other; our backs and butts are covered.
other than the job stability, they are the main reason i stay.

which is enough (: