i laughed like no mother today at lunch.
damm, its the last time i eat tgt with bimbo lim AND levon jiajie they all.

walao. 黑白配 and duck wing.
" huh duck got wing one mehs? "

how come i took so long t realise tt my friend is such a bimbo ? :x

played with wax and fished during HTech lab.
for the first time ever, i actually forgot to bring my labcoat.
koped one from the cupboard and no one realised.

and thank god it was clean.
or at least it looked clean =/

went for first OCP meeting today after school (:
shirlee was pre-warned about the flying elephants of cambodia.
read arh, bimbo lim ! the whole grp of us told you abt it alr. xD

anyway, jacq's the overall in-charge for OCP.
seeing her brief us, is like going thru amazing race over again. heh.

looking forward to this trip, especially when bimbo lim is in my group. LOL.
hoping it wun be cancelled due t h1n1 :x

stepping into IT5-6-12 makes me miss those times.
sentimental.

<3 mini zkm
see, dont say i nvr mention you LOL

i'm obviously not ready for first day of school.
9am - 6pm , wtf.

i realised its about time i posted a new entry.
and its gotta be NOT emoshit cuz certain people are suspecting me of setting an aura alr :x

THIS HOLIDAY I HAVE

- celebrated ivy soh's 18th birthday with cheryl, sok,ben lai and aaron old bird (:
went t bugis to k from 2pm to 6pm liddat, at a v cheap price.
then brought sok t my parents' store, shared mee rubus . bloated :x

bimbo lim didnt go cuz she had dpa meeting ><

- went out with liying cocobean , then mini zkm and nazzymulleh
wanted t watch night at the museum 2 , but ly couldnt make it :x
we took neoprints instead :D

- went bowling !
my dad kept going t the lokang, and i set up the barrier for him ;p
he ended up winning me with double strikes though ._.

- went k AGAIN at bugis with my sisters, ahSAI and my aunt
i learnt abt how ahsai's phone got confiscated , and laughed like no sai's business :D

*she was caught smsing cuz she forgot her bag was transparent

- went for hei sushi with mini zkm for 19months celebration
we were both super stuffed, and i had my fill of chawanmushi <3
and of course, finally had time t spend with him

long bus rides and idiotic lil kids :x

AND I AM GOING K TML AGAIN WITH BIMBO LIM :DDD
training for my vocals. xD

why is it that i never get my own time to do the things i want to do?

on hiatus until term test week is over (:

let me be straightforward here.

we were originally friends. not v close but nt total strangers either.
i thot you were smth like my older brother.

at first i didnt mind talking to you.
but after awhile things became weird.
i found out tt you were actually lying to me.
you even faked someone's death to make it seem real.

and that lie was quite unnecessary.

i began avoiding you.
not just because of the lie. and definitely not because of HIM.
its because you were lying just to keep me as a friend.
and i dont appreciate that.
and, it freaked me out.

then comes the big drama.
why did you even have to fake a tag on HIS blog?
did you have to try and fake yet another lie that would be exposed?

i trust HIM inexplicably.
tagging as an unknown person from his school, accusing him of two-timing me.
thats not gonna break us up.
cuz there is no evidence to prove your claim.

and even better, you tripped.
faking his identity and calling crist by the wrong name is so obvious, again.

if what you were trying to do was to get attention from me, FORGET IT.
if what you were trying to do was to make him look bad, FORGET IT.
if what you were trying to do was to break us up, FORGET IT EVEN MORE.

you have lost every single credibility in my eyes.

csas3. boring as usual.
slacked for 4 hours while waiting for MGen lecture. which turned out t be a waste of time.

but i still had fun deesiao-ing bimbo lim. keke.
she kept seeing her X today can !
everytime see alr face oso must red.
bimbo arh, when are you gonna stop overloading the blusher. :x

had dory fish w citrus sauce at mensa tday.
whoo i miss the fish. LOL. and its been long since i've pampered myself in school.
went t bistro walk to peii bimbo lim for her dessert craving.

' um, i want choc ... huh no chocolate ice cream arh? '

she ordered the belgian waffles, which amazingly shrank in size by half over the sem break.
as soksok put it, ' shuo shui ' :x

cookies&cream icecream on top (:
bimbo lim. happy with her fork :x

she said she wanted t share with me, and i said yes cuz i know she paiseh t eat alone ._.
but i was feeling quite full, so i ate like only one row of lil squares.

later on she told me tt thankgod i helped her t eat if nt she couldnt finish .
but actually. SHE CAN. LOL.

bimbo uh?

and while waiting for FPath test t start, we went back t camwhoring !
been damn long since we've done tt.

my front camera quality has sucked ever since i dropped my ph too much.
so i bloody hell edited all the photos just for fun. (:

rmb when we used t sit by the corridor t spend time away? x]

and i got into the sheer mood of editing.
so i decided to dedicate it t coconut and ahxiao too :D

these were taken like last year november 17th laa .
my uncle's wedding dinner .

of course, i didnt forget mini zkm.
but for my privacy's sake i put it up only on fb. (:

t ahxiao;
you toot, i hope you bloody hell read this.
your results is like dropping faster than a chicken out of the window.
dont wait till the point of no regret then you start studying laa.
YOU'RE AN ENGLISH TCHER, CANNOT FAIL ANYTHING OKAY :3

know how t control ur time , if nt i send coconut t roll all over you.
squeeze your bean juice dry, LOL.

she is really quite a bitch.
i totally didnt expect her to be like that, cuz she helped me and all.

but this seriously just shows,
that appearances were meant t be decieving.

officially ONE&HALF yrs with mini zkm (:
its been a long and trying time,
but i still love you deeply, all the same. <3

went t plaza sing for a movie; angels&demons
hmm, the show was nice , but the story was quite different frm the book.
and i thot it was quite speeded up they way they introduced the situation.

andand they shldnt hve removed the relationship btwn vittoria and her adopted father.
just plain colleagues doesnt give her a purpose t run all arnd so enthusiastically. LOL

anyway. we didnt go for dinner though. :x
cuz i had t go t work. sadded.

but hmm ya. we still enjoyed each other's accompany, even if it was for awhile only. <3
and he is damn cute, to plan t go back t the place where we had our first date. x]

oh and i saw ivysoh !
super funnyaye~ i called her name, and she went woaah!
macham chua sai. HAHAHAHA.

t fariza;
thanks for taking the effort t clarify with me .
maybe i am indeed mistaken about the situation.
hope no one would mind too much what i've said. but just writing down how i felt ya.

i'm sure that you have definitely made your choice correctly.
dinee is a great leader, i've seen her work and worked with her during week0.
so if given the choice i wouldnt have even wanted t go against her.
but sadly i wasnt.

AY 09/10 main comms have alr been selected.
so now, dont worry abt whatever people are saying.
prove it to them that you guys can do it and do it great.

take care, and thanks for clarifying again. (:

so many things happened today !
of course, good and bad.

shall show the good stuff and you just..
highlight the bad if you're really dying t know (:

was late for school today, reached t LT 20mins after lecture started.
but i didnt miss anything worth listening cuz she was reading off the slides :x
then went for tutorial; open book quiz and i forgot t bring the book.

and shirlee still didnt get t see her e_e_wiwi. aka X for short.

oh and at this point i realised tt there are some girls in class, besides sok and bimb.
who love me and support me.

shall nt put their names down in case they shy :3
but know tt i love you guys okay !

okay, then slacked with shirlee after htech.
as usual, walked t cheers for her bottled milk tea. hahhas.

met xx boss, then got distracted and ran off again with shirlee and vonvon t change ez link
damn funny, tt shirlee dio her PRIMARY SCHOOL PHOTO.
vonvon see alr jitao laugh and bang wall .

like whatthefuckingbbqfishsauce. primary school photo.

met grace chan cuz she wanted t talk t me and vonvon.
apparently she knows tt we intended t run
and therefore she asked us t come for main comm meeting later on
why? so tt we can make a speech for the 14 new main comms t vote who deserves t 15th.

candidates are me vonvon and dineesha.

when i heard tt, my heart dropped.
i mean. i had no intention of running alr whatsoever.
and somemore look at the person i am competing for.

whatever i say doesnt make a difference no matter how gd it is.
and morever, i am clear what reception i will recieve.

i wanted so much to just leave school. to run away.
but then i thot, since i am given a chance t say smth to the new main comms,
be it i get mocked and insulted. be it tt they accuse me of being power hungry.
but at least i say my piece and leave it at that.

so, i stayed.

and in case you wanted to know.
my key phrases are ; improve oltc. work as a team. JUDGE ISSUES, NT PEOPLE

short and sweet, just the way i wanted it.

and also. the courage of one made me feel tt there is at least hope. (:

went for lunch with xx boss and rach buspartner :D
shunbian claim my lunch treat tt boss owes.
PASTAMANIA.

practically stuffed myself with tt freaking creamy chicken pasta + lots of tabasco.
freaking creamy it was. but it left me full even till now; 2pm - 2.45am :x

then after meeting, was dinner !
omg damn fun. first time sitting on the floor and talking/eating in a circle OUTSIDE of school.
on a damp and wet floor cuz it rained oso. hahas.

AND YA. rain is caused by boss wearing his sunglasses out (:
he has like alot of theories; another one is his slipper breaking theory. hahahahas.

played bumper cars after dinner.
so damn nostalgic ! and a form of stress relief siaa. keke.
i was in the same car as dennis.
he's a monster driver sia, omg. hahahas.

and orh, say wanna all knock eugene la horh !
end up all knock each other and he come bang all of us like mad. LOL.

at least, the last day of AY0809 still ended on a fun note.
now, t move on to t new chapter.

but lessons learnt will nvr fade away (:

thanks grace, for recognizing me. cheer up girl.
there are sometimes when everyone misunderstands you,
but the few who understand,
are the ones who'll truly be with you thru thick and thin.

thanks eugene also, for being a gd leader thru ay08/09
you helped me alot in oltc and week0,
plus advised me alot regarding matters .
dont stress too much anymore, concentrate on enlistment la (:

thanks boss. for guiding me thru stuff.
you taught me alot besides oltc.
thickened my skin, told me stuff abt luchini tt i didnt know was more than a joke. :x
but ya, still valuable lessons (:

thanks rach buspartner, for accompanying me home !
and helping me , encouraging me.
we're each others listening ear horh.
bus69 to bus38. hahahas.

and jiayous dennis. in hope tt you'll achieve what you want for asc ay 09/10.

lastly.
happy 18th month taupok!
thanks for supporting me thru these tough times no matter what. <3

in life.
when you normally think you have it all,
you turn around to find that its just dust and shadows.

poof and it disappears.

OKAY I AM DAMN BORED.
maple is STILL undergoing patch since 8am. roar.

so i got bored and watched videos.

this is extremely cute.
whohoohoo, kbye. :D



and below are the orientation videos i got from eric and aaronOLDBIRD :D



OLTC



ORIENTATION



DAKOTA EXCULSIVE

memories are always with me (:

HAPPY M18TH BIRTHDAY MEL ZAI. (:

went out with coconut just now for lunch :D
bugis swensens, hahahas.

i had fish&chips, coconut had breaded chicken meuniere.
plus the dessert , was this scoop of ice-cream with pastry, cold fudge and almonds on it. x]
we took advantage of the executive lunch promo :x

anyway, the service there was quite sucky.
both of us were left waiting at the door though the MANAGER saw us.

and it wasnt even rush hour by the looks of people inside.

the table next t us also, jitao nt happy with the service.
first they didnt get their SOD. then the glasses were stained.
then when the lady asked for her tea to be served, they forgot to serve the ice-cream as well.

if it had been at swensens T2, tt wouldnt have happened. no kidding.

anyway, they downsized their water cups !
using the kid meal drink cups instead.
and they dont go arnd refilling iced water anymore.
they just throw a tumbler at your table and expect you to refill it yourself.

seriously, then why do i still pay for service fee?
refilling water is a basic courtesy tt every restaurant should give wad.
izzit really difficult to get staff to do such stuff?
unless like, okay, maybe during lunch hour / extremely crowded then use nvm laa.

but not all the time and still expect us to pay service fee. F3

ohwells. this saturday is officially ONEandAHALF years with mini zkm (:
going t watch angels&demons. i cnt wait ! :D

pictures :Drandom. ingredients we used for the cornflakes thingy !
mother's day prez for aunts and mum (:
i like mango shaved ice. :D

ytd, i made THE important decision.

many people have been encouraging me t go.
many people have been telling me nt t put my studies at stake.

i gave it serious thought.
i even picked up the green form from SAA.

but in the end. i decided nt to.

part of me says tt i should take this opportunity.
i want to help out for orientation once more
i want to show people tt i can make OLTC better, since i've got the experience now.
i want to do something worthwhile.

but then again,
my studies will definitely suffer.
i cannot afford a drop in GPA anymore.
if not i can nvr go t uni like i want t.
and i am afraid i cannot cope with the stress.

and again, what about the inexistence of teamwork ?

anyway. i'm sorry if i disappointed anyone with the decision.
if there is anyone even feeling tt way.

monday
basically slacked in the lab, cuz it was damn boring.
saw luchini and jasonBENLAI in the adjacent com lab.
chua sai. me and vonvon laugh like shiet.

and 7 people in a group leaves 4 people gossiping and failing the post-lab later on.

went for dinner with grace clarissa eugene nadiah sok yuehli eunice jacq and vonvon.
swensens left me quite low on cash for the next few days :x
but worth it, cuz i got a good haul of gossip from there :D

and i got to give grace a good face mask of cream (:

tuesday
understanding theatre was fun, as usual.
and my partner was sibei deesiao okay.

first bird flu of the cervix. then cow cancer, LOL .

wednesday
50minutes of lab. 15minutes of actual practical ._.
and then i was free to go home .

only i didnt go; i became shirlee's highlight of the day.
peii her to try arrange yanling's surprise for her birthday.

wait for siewyin to get the cake, then run over t business to catch yanling.
we nearly had t get a knife from ITAS and smuggle over t business okay ! LOL.

today :D
yet another lab session, but 2hrs this time.
damn boring, and i arrived late cuz of stupiak 38. _l_

and shirleeBIMB vandalised my correction tape ! wthiao ):

went for a haircut today, now i have slanted bangs. ._.
but it isnt really v obvious. cuz she didnt cut tt short.

met jh to buy mum's present, and ly for coffeeeee ! hahahas.
i had fun chatting and laughing with them.
plus ly's intro of cheesecake + whipped cream with choco powder is simply delish !

whipped cream tastes nice with literally anything okay.
my toasted cream + cream cheese bagel agrees too. :D

met 2 weirdos today. seriously freak sia.

one was at starbucks;
he suddenly slammed his newspaper on the table and scolded us for being too loud.
then he was like muttering under his breath and looking at me and ly.
then still say wad thing economy and swine flu, LOL. total nonsense.

the other one was at the citylink there;
me and coconut were going down t escalator and he was smiling this teeko smile at us.
i saw and i ignored, cuz i know cfm siao lang.
coconut kept looking and was damn scared =/
he started following us and smiling throughout even after we got off.

coconut panicked and grabbed me towards the nearest toilet.

at that time i was quite pissed with her ,
cuz she didnt even think abt the fact tt toilets might have been empty
and tt he would still follow us in.
if she were alone, what would have happened..?

this is why my parents feel safer with me arnd her. ;x

went back to school ystrday for cert collection and debrief.
shall not mention anything much. ;x

on the way home, i saw smth and heard smth tt was damn.. fucked up.

i saw a whole contigent of police cars, ambulances, fire engines lined up near a block of flats.
a whole mass of people were standing at the side of the road too.
initially i thot it was some murder or homicide or what. sadistic ;x
but saw the inflatable mattress thingy, so i guessed tt there was drama occurring upwards.

i was right, there was this figure sitting on a ledge at the 12th floor.
suicide.

at the moment i bloody hell prayed for the person's safety.
i was thinking; please dont jump, please dont jump.
listen to the person trying to psycho you. ;x

but i didnt stay to watch the drama. on the bus marhs.

when i got off, this cheeena couple was behind me.
the zhabor was like asking, do you think it was a guy or girl.
guess what the guy said?

" how i know. you want me to call? ' hello, you girl or guy, jump alr anot?' "

WHATTHEFUCKINGHELL.
no wonder the source of all problems seem to originate from that country.

like. you nvr sympthatize sua lorhs. no need to make such comments.
save it for yourself uh. muthafucker.

tiring day at work.
encountered some totally shitty customers but some nice ones too.
sang retarded songs to coconut while scrubbing plates.

shurabayapon~ :D

overall, the same old routine.

he got pissed today at himself.
but i hope he'll feel better tml, after my effort to surprise him (:

was late for lecture again.
i've nvr been early or on time yet for this sem.

so sickening.

anyways, slacked at pasir ris for 2hrs plus while waiting for human wheelbarrow event.
ate lunch, walked arnd. blah blah blah.
shirlee accompanied me, cuz we wanted to change the concession card.
but whatthehell, so waste time.

cuz the concession card, school will auto change for us. =="

*rantings from now onwards.*

human wheelbarrow event was completely disorganised.
TPSU didnt give ASc clear instructions at all.
yet they had the gall to complain tt our OLs arent doing our jobs.

for goddamn mother fucking sake.
how to do stuff when they dont bother to even tell us?
always directing us to wrong places and then screaming at us for it.
i asked for help, and when directions finally came. it came with attitude.

why the fuck are you even screaming at me sia.
your people ask me to move to this side.
i move, i see no people. you come and scream at me and tell me its the other side.
FUCK YOU. YOUR PEOPLE GIVE WRONG INFO MY FAULT?
TPSU damn tua kee mehs.

turnout for the event was quite poor.
honestly saying if i had a choice i wouldnt go.

but still, if you had wanted to leave cuz its pointless and your freshies have all left,
why didnt you just say it larhs?
like i'll goddamn fucking force you to stay there.
you've known me for 1 year alr sia.
not as if i'll get pissed if you tell me the truth.
not as if i'm like still in-charge of anything at all.
SORRY IF I MADE YOU FEEL LIKE I WAS FORCING LORHS.
BUT I AM PISSED CUZ YOU LIED.

and i was just bloody hell passing on a msg.

ANYWAY.
stayed behind to cheer on for the freshies taking the endurance challenge.
went high with the rest of the officials there.
all the way even after dinner and on the bus okay !

that was like the only highlight of the event, lawls.

trying to get photos from eric.
who is also trying to get me to sign up for facebook so tt i can just kope frm there. LOL.

let me just end off by emo-ing.

today marks the official end of orientation.
it was sucky, it was fun, it was stressful.
overall still a good learning experience. (:

but, after today i just intend to fade away into the backgrnd again.
back to the quiet times before all these crazyness started.
i'll just focus on him and family and work.

i wont even think about ASc anymore after AY officially ends.
why? bcuz there is no point running for main comm.
my friends dont even respect me enuf to tell me the truth, just as a friend.
not to mention the others who dont even know me.

to them, i'm just someone who hasnt made any contribution to ASc.
except for weekzero, which everyone has done their part for too.
so what have i actually done?
its just nothing much. nothing more.

to the others who think i can make it,
just thanks for thinking tt i can. thats all.
i cannot promise you tt i will and can run.
bcuz there is no point in doing so when no one supports you though you're working tgt.
bcuz there is no point in doing so when no one wants to give honest feedback.
bcuz there is no point in doing so when all odds are against you.

there is just no point for me to continue.

special note.
<3 shirlee for accompanying me for 3hrs.
<3 dakota for zi-highing with me today.
<3 jason helium voice for treating me ILT.
<3 eric for photos.
<3 rachel for leaking out 2 secrets in 1 sentence. LOL.

gahhs. this is pure sickness.

my lappy has been giving me problems these few days.
its screen keeps flickering.

maybe its the coconut curse ;x

anyway, i've to like send it for repair , and earliest i can get it back is monday.
LIKE !@#$%^ !

so, MIA for the weekend and probably longer, people. ):

not sending for repair till monday.
cuz i'm checked with lenovo and they arent even gonna work on the during the weekend.

so why shld i send it in on friday?
pointless.

went out with liying and coconut today :D

had sakae sushi, whoo.
left feeling damn pampered sia.
4 cups of chawanmushi , 1 bowl of cha soba , and fried tofu !
plus sushi , but not quite alot of it though.

liying couldnt believe the amt i could chow down. ;x

slacked at starbucks, had 3/4 cup of whipped cream with chocolate powder and green tea .
sounds gross and disgusting. but it was nice too okayys !

camwhored awhile, windowshopped too.
fun but honestly, i was still feeling drained and tired physically.

photos shall be put up soon. ;D

yet another slack day.
missed APEL2 cuz the buses were late and i was feeling too broke to hail a cab.
alvin poh is not worth my $8 anyway. ;x

had lunch with A9F2 at bizpark today. chicken cutlet !
my throat wasnt feeling well, but heck.

thats the only thing edible.

only intrsting lesson today was understanding theatre.
like. no lectures and just homework for reflection.
and we got to talk and move arnd and all tt.

plus, 7 people from weekzero are in my class too.
ivy cheryl qai firdaus akmal bryan. whoo.

much much better than MGen, where i still fell aslp once the tcher started talking.
i swear, the videos teach much better than he does. ;x

since coconut voiced out alr, i'm nt afraid to show what i feel.
i didnt mind getting neglected , i didnt feel jealous tt you were closer to her.
i mean, we see each other nt tt often.
cannot expect you to only have us arhs.

i just didnt like it when you came to us only when you had problems. ;x

the truth is, you neglected nt only us, but so much more just cuz of her.
you neglected your family
you neglected your studies
alot of those who cared abt you were v v worried abt your attitude change.

at least, i hoped you've realised it now.
she may be a fun friend to hang out with.
it might be really enjoyable and relaxing with her.
but, there is something called too much of a good thing.
focusing all the time and money you have on 1 person isnt correct.

of course, we aint saying tt you shld cut off contact with her too.
its just time and people management you know.

and of course, you're still my ahxiao.
8 years and still running (:

officially the start of year2 today !
its not really much different, except for the new faces tt i see around.

wth, levon's my clsmate now larhs !
she tt day still tell me probably different class.
i dio stun when i saw her siaa. ><

oh. wayne and zul are in TG02 as well.
plus the rest from A8G3. qai, syad, elora, hwaleong.

and the rest just look like strangers. ;x

ANYWAY. i was like waving to people quite alot uh.
dont know why oso, damn high.

and there are alot of people from dakota arnd tt i havent realised are in my cohort.
like zizheng , faris. i nvr realised tt they were in BIO.
always thot they were seniors or from some other courses before i knew them ;x

went out for lunch with sok and shirlee.
had my bbt craving. but not d_____ smoothie. !@#$%^

been quite long since we've done that. and probably lesser next time.
cuz our lunch hours dont really coincide; we only can have tuesday lunch tgt.

but ohwells. there are still weekends. (:

AND. i fell asleep during MGen lecture larhs.
i cant believe it, first lecture of the AY and i am alr sleeping.

okay actually. i can believe tt.
this subject is so goddamnit freaking boring.
the lecturer speaks in monotone too.
v paul cheong like cuz he took 1hr to finish introducing the subject.

and FPATH. thot tt was the only subject we could still take as a class; A8G3.
how wrong. its purely 100% e-learning !
no face-to-face lectures or tutorials.
not even before term test, like whatthefuckzxzxzxzx.

how the hell am i supposed t be motivated to research on my own. =/

went t tampinesONE after school with mini zkm.
both our first times going, tts so noobshit.

but what to do sia. only now then i have the time .

saw alot of people there, including YINGQIAN.
omg only ytd i was talking t her in maple.
about seeing her tt time at city link. LOL.

bus-ed home, fell aslp on his shoulder.
and even after he got off, i continued slping till i missed a stop.

DAMN. i'm becoming piglike.

weekzero is finally over. and i had 15hrs of sleep today :D

through the whole process of orientation, there was alot of blood, sweat and tears.
but i enjoyed it. cuz it has given me an experience i wont forget.

dakota may not have won the best LT award,
but you guys have been the best to me throughout.
thru OLTC, thru LT deco and finally, thru weekzero.
everything has been fun with you guys <3

i wun forget all those crazy videos we've watched and laughed at.
i want nobody nobody but you ~ :D

plus anil clap. ivy clap. ismail clap.
and the ever classic dakota clap by louis chin.

not forgetting to thank the main comms.
xunxiang boss, for guiding me thru OLTC. though he sucks when he drinks durian bbt ;x
eugene, for helping me thru OLTC and weekzero. and burping. and trying t run away. ;x
nadiah, for being such a great FA for dakota. without you, dakota wouldnt be t same. (:
grace, for being an awesome programme head. and comforting me when i cried. (:
jason, for organising weekzero and stressing us out. and his helium voice. ;x
rachel, for providing us food. and being my bus partner. (:
janson, aka ahpek. for being the OLTC log head and bua-ing me with soap. ;x
eric, for all stuff you have designed and done for us. esp the dakota shirts. (:
jordan, crystal, zhenhan, sharon, chongseng, zishan, for helping out during OLTC. :D
peckgee, for helping out in log. and being a great mortal for me ;p

also to mention, clarissa and grace chan.
they've taught me alot as well, and clarified alot of doubts for me.

lastly, all the officials from weekzero. the OLs , loggers, helpers.
weekzero 09 wouldnt have been possible without you guys. <3

edit ;
i forgot to thank someone who has been supporting me silently !
tt's my family, esp mini zkm and coconut.
they've been the ones bearing the brunt of my attitude prob sometimes.
and they've been the ones there for me too.
LOVE YA <3

week zero so far has been great (:

freshies were quiet at first, and it took some time for them to get hyped up.
no choice uh, doing admin. and i was still half asleep. ;x

anyway, most of them are okay right now.
only some of them are quiet during cheering, but they still do take part in games.
so i guess thats okay.

ystrday final clash, was good to see dakota enjoying the game.
i got to interact with the classes too .

but there was smth sucky tt happened too.
dont want to elaborate. its settled and done for anyway.
but i still feel bad . =/

ANYWAY. tml's the final day; TP regatta !
there's no olympiad this year though.
just some mass dance competition shit.

grace informed me last minute tt i have to lead the freshies during the competition cheer.
sucks sia. i dont know if i can shout anot.
and and, i scared i ganjiong forget the cheer ! ;x

week0 starts officially in arnd 5hrs.
all our hard work, this is the final hurdle.

ganbatte, all officials.
especially the week0 organising team. <3

i made him wait 5hrs for me.
such an ungrateful brat i am.

my parents are the absolute jerks.
they are so damn bloody hell unappreciative of whatever jinghui has done.

which is hell lot more than i have been contributing.

she's been designing their name cards.
she's been printing their posters.
she's been giving them out under the hot sun.
she's been going to work almost everyday.
washing plates. wiping them dry. preparing the raw food. dealing with fucked up customers.

and yet, just because of a little cock up she did, they have to wipe away her credits.
just because she laminated ONE GOD DAMN NOTICE WRONGLY.

MUST EVERY FUCKING THING BE AS ORIGINALLY PLANNED?
SHE DIVIDED IT INTO TWO, INSTEAD OF LEAVING IT WHOLE.
SAY WHAT. CANNOT SLOT IN, WILL FALL, ETC. ETC.

CANT YOU FUCKING PASTE THEM SEPERATELY INSTEAD?
MUST YOU INSIST ON PUTTING THEM TOGETHER INTO ONE FUCKING FOLDER?

its just a GOD DAMN NOTICE.

I DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND WHY BOTH OF YOU HAVE TO SCOLD HER.
I DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND WHY ONE MISTAKE TO YOU,
MEANS THAT EVERY SINGLE GOOD SHE'S DONE IS GONE.

FUCK YOU GUYS. seriously.

settled. so dont ask me what happened alr arh ! (:

went around reading random blogs; people back from ahs.
abit nostalgic.

seeing people still meeting up for class outings, chalets.
seeing tt there is at least one person they've kept in contact with till now.

i realised that i have moved on without any holding back.

not saying tt i dont need them or dont bother abt them anymore LAH.
but graduation didnt seem that painful like then.

honestly saying. i have never felt involved in anything back in ahs.
biggest woah was ahsdancesociety performances.
spending time with the gayshits was damn fun. (:

but other than that, i dont find many many memories that i cannot let go of.

i kinda miss my classroom, yes.
but bcuz i no longer have a classroom to call my own now.

i miss the times i've spent with pb and danicia.
though now both of them arent on talking terms and neither am i with one of them.

one thing i definitely do not miss was the lack of confidence i had.

back in ahs i was only loud with my friends.
i didnt socialize much. so people tended not to rmb me unless i was in their classes.
heck. even some of my classmates dont recognise me alr.

like tt day, jeremy foo was like. directly opposite me at the bus queue.
he was facing me like 80% of the time but there wasnt any spark of recognition. hahas.

maybe i've really changed.
but i dont think its only in terms of outer appearance.
its the inside as well.

i've grown stronger, more independent. though i know someone still thinks otherwise ;p
i've grown more confident.
i've learnt to trust myself more, and stop doubting myself.
i've learnt to love myself more no matter how people look at me.
i've learnt to respect myself by ignoring pointed negative comments.

what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger,
and you emerge a much better person out of it.

so cliche, but really so true.

back to reality.

OLTC did put me through alot of heartaches and headaches.
but i pulled through in the end.

so i have to stop being afraid and start taking first steps.

week0 orientation. ELEVEN MORE DAYS.

the mental barrier is there alr.
i really dont know if i can do it anymore.

whenever i think back to day 4, i cant help but feel scared.

i know everyone is comforting me and assuring me,
why are the people closest to me not understanding how i feel?

my parents think i'm idling my time away in school.
they think i am slacking and having fun.
they question where i really go when i stay overnight.

cuz they think its too frequent to be real.

and, i am really sorry i dont have time for you anymore.
i dont want to make too many empty promises..

too many..

i pray that i have the every bloody ounce of strength to carry thru week0.

OLTC was not what i expected.

i still keep asking myself where have i failed.
i still keep asking myself where i went wrong.

but. i also seek the answer to what i can do to improve refresher on thursday.

hopefully, we can all start on a fresh clean slate.

and. thanks all who comforted me.
i really felt appreciated and loved by all your hugs and encouragements.

<3 dakota, and those who comforted me.
<3 main comms, for reassuring me.
<3 logistics team, for making OLTC possible.

and.
<3 mini zkm loads, for lending me your shoulder and picking me up.

happy birthday levono !

she probably wouldnt be seeing this, but for fun.
i'll just write this down anyway. (:

as usual, went down to school.
today was half day for me though.
didnt do much; typed in and rephrased the first aid troubleshooting procedures.
collected money from some participants,
and discussed smth really v v confidental. eg. whether eugene is really ghey or not. LOL

okay i was just kidding.
but whether eugene IS or ISNT ghey. ahem.

we shall see larhs, horh.

my boss was so kind as to spare me from smelling durian again today.
apparently someone recommended someone to drink DURIAN BUBBLE TEA.
yes, durian flavoured. with the flesh of the fruit instead of pearls.

at first, still can tahan.
1 sample cup only marhs. everyone tried and said it tasted good.
but dont look at me !

i didnt go near the cup. ;x

then then, the next day !
FOUR people bought the durian bbt.

first was nadiah. she popped the cup in front of me.
hokay, still nvm. can tahan.

xx saw i v cham larhs. say he wun open his first, till later.
at that time i was feeling relieved, but janson walked into the room happily slurping.
and sat somewhere near xx, to my left

hokay. NVM. still can tahan.

at this moment clarissa walked in and handed an open cup of durian bbt to eugene.
fyi. he was sitting to my right.

xx burst out laughing, and so did the others who had noticed my already red nose. =/

so i told my dear boss tt he could start drinking alr cuz it doesnt make a difference.
the whole log room smelt of durian alr. and so did the corridor.

oh. and eugene further improved the quality of the air by burping durian scented air.

OKAY BACK TO TOPIC.

in addition to the no-durians-today-cuz-we're-getting-heaty-and-eugene-cant-poop,
my boss let me have the day off.
so boss. thankyou. ;)

wanted to rush for a movie with mini zkm; marley and me.
but then his tcher called, and explained tt he wanted to meet mini zkm today.
smth regarding the O level maths paper registration.

apparently his results are not bad, and his tcher hopes he can get a O lvl cert for maths.
so we went down to his school instead (:

i was disappointed initially,
but your future is much more impt than a movie tt i can watch online anytime.
so dont feel guilty. okayys?

suddenly rmbered tt nazzymully and yun were at xfire.
so both of us went there to surprise both of them. :D

nazzymully's eyes nearly popped. AHAHAHAHA.
and yun? he got his chair shaken for the MES word. =="

eighteen chefs for dinner today!
this time i had creamy mango sauce + sausage + mushrooms + chicken slices
wao. the mango is xiang de lorhs ~ xD

went suntec convention center for F&B fair.
christ mei was working there for her aunt maarhs.
her mei was there accompanying her too. jojo. ;x
she unloaded a pile of brochures on me and mini zkm to help give out. hahas.

poor mini zkm. he unintentionally called this auntie ' sir ' and thus.
earned a session of cramp causing laughter from us. :DD

had fun though, crist and jojo tried to tempt me with liquor chocolates.
they are another les pair tt i know who are so ghey, okay.

ahxiao and kukunut is the ultimate pairing. <3

after tt we went to buy my 2 pairs of fbts.
straight cut, not curve cut.
i dunwan to be smexyaye or whatever and risk thigh exposure like others. =/

mrt-ed home !
no long bus ride today, cuz we left too late. aww.

okay and now.
i want to sleep but i'm not sure if i can.
cuz my hmwork for today is nt done.
cuz i'm not sure of the changes
cuz i went out
and cuz of tt i dont know the exact updated details.
cuz xx is alr aslp, i think.

which is actually. all my fault cuz i procrastinated today and started late. ><

alright i shall go sleep.

i feel so guilty for causing you to be like this.
sorry tt i made you feel alone.
sorry tt i neglected you again.

i promise you, after this mess is over,
i'll make it up to you (:

i have been going back to school everyday again.
my life is currently all about my love burden ____, OLTC.

its commencing in arnd SEVEN DAYS.
and i dont know if i shld feel nervous or excited abt it.

when everything seems to be going smoothly,
then someone asks me a question and messes my confidence entirely.
i think i'm too inexperienced to handle this. :(

cuz i have nvr planned smth like this before, let alone be such an impt role.

but still. since i've made it so far.
i might as well run the final lap the best i can,
and just hope tt everything will hold together like it should.

JINGTING YOU CAN FUCKING DO IT.
survive OLTC you ass.
_________________________________________________________________

oh yeahs. these few days, i've been going without lunch.
just breakfast if i'm nt late, and dinner at night.

its nt tt i'm trying to lose weight.
i bloody hell lost 5kg alr, and i dont aim to lose more.

its just that, i dont really have the mood to eat when i'm in school.
and that i'm trying to save cash for idk what.

i just feel as if i lack cash larhs ! ;x

thanks mini zkm, for buying me a meal tho i refused. ._.
thanks shirlee, for offering me your mcwings, hahas !

and thanks the rest who are worried.
but i'm freaking okay okay. :D

extremely tired after working today !
frm 9am - 9pm on my feet. whew.
i think my soles are ready to split up with me.

well. at least its for my parents. ;x

mundane routine of washing plates and finding change for customers.
and i peeled of 2 chunks of my nails along with the potato skins.
the middle finger hurts cuz the flesh is exposed.

reminds me of smth..
" oh, my god. i think i need a manicure ~ " LOL !

ohh yeahs.
saw keely and tt guy she was rumored to be with during css.
i dont rmb his name. and i only realised he was in css cuz i saw keely ._.

therefore no starstruck oomg reactions coming from me. hahahas.
jh : ' got such person mehs '

___ you suck. no one rmbs you ;x

okayys. random sia.
going sleep. tml having briefing for OLTC.

and i have to report at 9AM OKAY. ):

went out with jinghui for our SHOPPING SPREE on thursday ! :D
i bought a black skirt, eyeliner, and tt's all.
poor me, no cash to spend. ;x
jh spent alot more, but she was satisfied with her haul.

its been so damn long since i have been out shopping with my dearest sister. x)

the kukunut doesnt know her directions.
we got lost diverted twice larhs !
first time was on the mrt.
second was on the bus.

last time i'm gonna let her lead the way, i swear.

went out with mini zkm as well, to pre-celebrate our 16th months.
cuz well. i have to go back to school on monday marhs. bleh.
but never mind ! most impt thing is tt we spent time tgt also.
our walking day, hahas.

we walked from central to clarke quay to funan to city hall to marina. HAHA.
had pastamania, whoo. satisfied MY craving. :D

and and he accompanied me to buy my black bag oso.
23bucks for a small bag, but i loved it. buckle detail FTW.

release of exam results today. via the ever scary sudden sms ;x

i wont say i was satisfied with the outcome.
cuz there is an obvious indication tt my grades have dropped since last sem.
and i can probably guess why as well.

but. i guess tt wont be a problem soon. =/

anywho. welcome ahxiao back frm overseas. :D
i'm kinda surprised she didnt bomb the plane. AHAHA.

i feel so exhausted today.
cuz i was working for my parents at their stall today you see. ;x

this fucking JC student and her bespectacled geek lower sec friend pissed me and jh off.
she kept turning arnd to look, then both of us diao her. hahahahs.

like. whatthefuckinghell is there to see larhs.
dont jealous we no need go school cuz its our goddamn holidays leh.

boohoo for you.

i feel vulgar today.^^_l_

and like i promised. peektures.

random shot of the circular staircase.
i want smth like this at home.

so tt i can sit on the railings like a twisty slide. :D

the cute cat called.. er.

jovan.
or was it navin?

anywho. its one of the two adorable cats with biased names at the class chalet. ;p
the other gray one kept running away, so boohoo no photo ):
why is the name biased ? lemme provide a picture i found in my phone.
i think tt was taken by amy.

thumb sucking jovan. tt's why ;x.
qai. :D

he had this glass with him, filled with coke. but it looked like a whisky glass.
and and we said he looked like a homeless guy eating his food and drinking. LOL

me and shirlee
inspired by an anyhow taken photo tt somehow showed this zoomed in part of my face.
me and shirlee decided to, um. take random shots and get people to guess?
LOOOOL.

mine is pretty obvious. ;x

and sok. you missed out on the fun ):

One day, when I was a freshman in high school,
I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.

His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books.
I thought to myself,
'Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd.'

I had quite a weekend planned, so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.
As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.
They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms,tripping him so he landed in the dirt.
His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him...

He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes.
My heart went out to him.

So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses.
I saw a tear in his eye.
As I handed him his glasses, I said, 'Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives. '
He looked at me and said, 'Hey thanks!'

There was a big smile on his face.
It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.

I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.
As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before..
He said he had gone to private school before now.
I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.

We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.
He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.
I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends. He said yes.
We hung out all weekend.

The more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same.
Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.
I stopped him and said,
'Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday! '

He just laughed and handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends..
When we were seniors we began to think about college.
Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke.
I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.

He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship..

Kyle was valedictorian of our class.
I teased him all the time about being a nerd.
He had to prepare a speech for graduation.
I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak.

Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great.
He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.
He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.
He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.
Boy, sometimes I was jealous!

Today was one of those days.
I could see that he was nervous about his speech.
So, I smacked him on the back and said, 'Hey, big guy, you'll be great!'
He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. ' Thanks.'

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began

'Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.
Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends....
I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.
I am going to tell you a story.'

I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the first day we met.
He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.
He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later.
He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.

'Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable..'
I heard the gasp go through the crowd, as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.

I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.
Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions..
With one small gesture you can change a person's life.
For better or for worse.

God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.
Look for God in others.

'Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.' There is no beginning or end..
Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift.

instead of spamming people thru mail, i shall leave this touching story here. :D

class bbq was fun, too bad sok couldnt make it. :(

was waiting for shirlee to reach, then then i called qai to ask for directions.
he instead told me tt he sees me somewhere and asked me to look up.
ta-daa, i saw gina and qai waving at me from the mrt abv. LOL

qai : " dont worry abt it, we're coming to get you ! " ROFL.

photos, shall update tml.
at the moment, i just wanna hit the damn pillow and get something called SLEEP.

which i have been lacking since end of exams start of holidays. ;x

your eye bags are getting magnificent
you always doze off on the phone
you look so tired everytime i see you
i know you've lost alot of weight. i can see.

i know. i'm feeling tired too..
but.. what? how?

3rd day of meetings; 9am to 9pm.
i'm exhuasted mentally alr, but at least we're making headway (:
xx says to chiong all the freaking way, then relax and just wait for OLTC ;x

but i dont think tt's possible, heh.
cuz we'd still be worrying and making little changes.

its kinda stressful when you're given such a post for a first time experience. =/

thanks for understanding me, mini zkm.
though we had problems compromising at first,
but i'm really glad tt we could work it out.

sorry for being such an absentee girlf these days. ):

PEARLYN PLS VIEW :DDDDDD
we edited the damn thing for you. x]

aku finished my exams alr.
just waiting for the results. =/
year1 is kinda sorta officially over then.

vestige outing on sunday was GREAT.
damn fun, damn enjoyable.
played ball games and pushed people into water.
and i got a sunburnt nose which is peeling. ;x

but its still really awesome, cuz the people were. ;D

and, though exams are freaking over.
i still feel mentally stressed and physcially exhausted.
someone save me soon.

HIS video.14.02.09.
MY video.14.02.08

hahas. publicity yeahs. ;p
but please dont be icked by some mushiness. LOL.

seriously seriously.

photos up another day, parents nagging alr. ;x

went out with mini zkm today - 15months + belated valentine.
and yes yes, i do know exams are coming. =/

anyway! i didnt get a present for him this time.
was busy with taking care of my grandparents and all, so. bleh.
he was perfectly fine with it though. ;p

his present for me was simple, yet i loved it so much.
its kinda like what i gave him last year, LOL!
a MMV that he made over 3 days.

thanks mini zkm, you made me smile :D

met him at tampines inter after HPI, went to e hub.
he planned today's date, supposed to be at escape.
but sadly it rained and we didnt wanna get our butts wet. xD

so so, we decided to go for an old fashioned lunch and movie. x]

lunch was at BBQ chicken. korea's no.1 worhs. o.O.
mini zkm said we shld try smth new tgt, so we did. :D
he had jerk chicken, i had korean charbroiled.

the portion of chicken was quite small, but for $7.90 student meal, what do ya expect?
i guess they minimised it, cuz original price was $13.90.
but thankfully the french fries stuffed me up. hahas.

spent arnd another 1 hr in the restaurant. playing warriors orochi. LOL
slow day in there, we were one of the 3 tables being occupied.
its usually quite packed on weekends, i've seen it.

movie was the wedding game. okay i know i'm outdated.
but i was busy okay! seriously, i forgot when i last watched a movie.
hmm. 18th dec? like omg 12345678 donkey months alr.

and i had a salted-not-sweet-popcorn craving. so. :D

played bishi-bashi champ and basketball for awhile.
its been quite long since i've played it too. =/

walked back to inter, took bus 12. long bus ride.
slacked at our usual scandalous playground. AHAHA.
he sent me home, end of story! (:

okay lawls.
i realised i havent been really going out seh.
my days are always oversleep, go school, slack with mini zkm, go home, slp.
like. omg. I'M STUCK IN A RUT =/

monday. hmm. had maths and cellb, but i skipped.

tuesday had jap presentation, that was a blast x)

we were always the first group to leave, but still, we did our jobs perfectly okay!
ignore the one or two lines we forgot.
WE DID AWESOME. :DDD
especially zhigang, srsly he was game enough to put on fake boobs okay. haha.
and and desebelle and mahes. they're like gossip buddies, heh. :p

i'm gonna miss jap. ;x
mahes zhigang me and desebelle.
okay i know i look v king like with the crown. ;p

smexyaye zhigang and his boob job. ;p

wednesday. should have had cellb tutorial, but it got cancelled ;D

thursday. full day of school AND a retarded re-quiz for cellb.

apparently many people failed. and llyod calls last week's test a MOCK test.
hmm. if it was a mock test, why are the questions exactly the same? LOL

fatihah had her CSAS2 presentation, so everyone looks shorter. ;p
friday. today!

i finished up my design 101 finally. and my sketchbook. keke.
mr loh gave both only a C. :(
and and i skipped cellb tutorial. ;p

WHATEVER. yeemon is so not worth me waiting 4 hours for.

anyway. both my grandparents got admitted to hospital today.
grandpa had to have a cataract removal.
grandma did a minor op on her throat, due to an infection.
both are fine now. but my grandma's still warded in hospital for observation.
visting her tmr. :)

yes yes i know its valentine's day. but mini zkm understands fully. :D
he was totally like, family comes first, its okay larhs.

we're going out on 16th feb instead. x]

daddy and mummy are back from their overseas trip !
hahas. so sweet yeahs. ;p

she bought like SO many stuff for me larhs. keke.
and jh, she was practically jumping up and down at every single present. hahas.



OKAY FOR RANDOMNESS SAKE. HERE'S A PHOTO OF JAZZ AND MINYU.
buttonFAM parents :D

if working together sucks so much and no one wants to give their opinions honestly,
yet choose to express it in pm.

WHATS THE DAMN FUCK POINT.

AHXIAO LOOK HERE.

i <3 freddi fish.
she's orange and yellow. PWNAGE OKAY.

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

for the record, i was in school for the past 28hrs. :D
and this time, we made solid progress.

so it doesnt matter that i nearly fell aslp standing. ;p

i got bored. so went to pangpang's blog.
tagged by her to do a quiz; december 2nd.
thats quite long ago. i know. ><

THE RULES :
People who were tagged , need to blog about their 10 weird habits/little facts.
At the end , you have to choose 10 person to be tagged and list their names.

little fact 1.
currently has red hair. fading, but still visibly red <3

little fact 2.
doesnt appreciate posers.
dont pretend to be so close when you arent ya.

weird habit.
cannt sleep without my bolster & blanket.
when in camp, i just KO. not sleep. =/

weird habit.
i enjoy rubbing my eyes. and nose.
BUT NOT PICKING.

little fact 3.
my boyf isnt chinese.
dont be so shocked larhs. chill. ;p

little fact 4.
we have been together for 1 yr plus
WITHOUT my parents knowing.

little fact 5.
i like sour cream & onion chips.
AND salt & vinegar.

so does he. <3

little fact 6.
my sister is taller than me.
the second one is gonna be, soon.

little fact 7.
i know how to speak in 4 languages.
chinese english malay jap.

and if i get french for CDS, it'll be 5.

weird fact
my big toe is longer than my 2nd toe.
which is different.

dont believe, look at yours ! ;p

tags !
-shirlee
-sok
-yanling
-jinghui
-ahxiao; pearlyn
-jojo
-mini zkm :D

-anyone else looking-

going off, back to homey. :D

i dont even understand why i bother to do so much.
its like. people take me for a fool.

i'm god damn tired alr, doing all this stuff in vain.

i woke up late today, omg.
10am HPI quiz, 9.45am i jolted awake.
cabbed down to school and reached the LT at 10.15am. ;x

no one can win me liao lorhs.

the cab driver was fast; he didnt try to knock some money outta me. until SOME people.
he did boast quite alot about his daughters though.
apparently one's studying in NJC, the other in NUS.
and they both got PSLE aggregates of 25x 26x.

which is acutally more than i wanna know, honestly.
like c'mon larhs uncle! their PSLE was quite long ago seh ._.

interview ended early today.
including debrief, we finished around 8.15pm.
like omg, wad a miracle.

xunxiang's worried that saturday might be horrible though. =/

sweet vindication.
she got shot by me today; finally.
i've been like ignoring her, hoping she'll get the memo.

apparently she doesnt.

wad ahlian sia.
even if you meant it jokingly, i dont appreciate it.
not cause i cant take a joke. its that you dont know me AT ALL.
so dont even try to get all friendly just for appearance. tsk.

saturday - ASc commitment day. spent more than 12hrs with them ;x
week0, sports fest duty.

mini zkm's not v happy. he misses our saturdays. :(

monday was the ultimate fuck.
totally drained; mentally and physically.
went for 2hrs stoning and skipped the rest of the day.

6pm back in school for interview.
at least i cheered up that little bit.

first time i had a crying jag on his shoulder.
rudolph, thats what he said.

today. light load.
only 1 hr of HPI tutorial. jap tutorial was short too.
40, 45 mins of listening test which i didnt study for.
then 30mins role play discussion.

which explains the single black folder i used to carry everything.

tomorrow onwards; interview chiongster.
-i cant imagine interviewing A8G3 peeps; scared i laugh when i see them seh-
*esp amy and shirlee. omg.

*i'm getting increasingly pissed with freehand drawing*
the tcher reminds me of my sec2 art tcher, who doesnt respect the students' work.
c'mon larhs,
if all you wanted was to draw over people's hard work and call that giving pointers.
why didnt you bloody ask us to bring blank papers for you to grade?

!@#$%^

14th monthniversary today :D

okayys, so its not a big deal.
but its been a crazy month for me and him.
with me being extremely stressed out and him bearing the brunt of my attitude prob. ;x
thanks for being so very patient <3

went dhoby ghaut for dinner; wanted to go justacia cuz i rmb it being halal.
apparently they dont sell anything with pork or lard; but its NOT halal certified.
he was actually still fine with the idea. but i refused cuz ..
well. i was quite pissed with myself for not checking properly ._.
*it was like i forgot to respect him yeahs. x(

went ljs instead cuz we were lazy creatures . ;p
BUT orh. we tried the rice set though. instead of the usual fried stuffzxz.
okay bahs, but i prefer my sinful fries and chicken :DDD

took bus14 home; our long bus ride. x]
then slacked at our usual playground.
talking all the way, keke.

though an ordinary date, but its still meaningful. x]

lecture day sucks.
goddamn boring larhs, especially when i didnt bring notes. =/

anyway, met jh after she got her O level results.
she didnt meet her expections. but wells. she improved alr. x)

gonna be busy next week with week0 interview ! ><

option block results are out !
and whoo whee surpriseeee. i got into BMT.
v unexpected, cuz i didnt think my results were that good.

grats to shirleee, qai , syad , wara , elora and hwaleong too. :DD

and the rest of the class who got their choice. GRATS!
*jiayous those who wants to appeal as well. x]

ANYWAY. i finally got my laptop, after so long. f3
my parents' 17th birthday gift. xD
its not the dell studio15, but smth better and lighter. and cheaper. and less bulky ;x
3GB RAM and Nvidia GeForce 256MB dedicated graphic card.
*can zkm without fear of lag * :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

and, no more fighting for the comp with jh.
life just got a whole lot simpler. ;p

today was.. a really sucky day considering my mood. =/
shall skip the shiats.

HPI tutorial was cancelled, so ended school early.
got to spend much needed time with mini zkm.
he's finally feeling better after 1 week + ;no more on-off fever & headache.

mini zkm treated me to a meal at eighteen chefs
apparently to cheer me up, which did. :D
eating always manages to lift my mood.
and it probably helped that i had entertainment too. x]

played captain's ball today; ASc organised a sports fest in prep for director's cup ;x
on our team was : gina, fatihah, amy, rachel, yanling. plus us 3.
thanks gina for coming yeahs. :D

*its her 18th birthday, she had plans, but she still came. *aww*

anyways, we played against A2; year2 FSN.
they were.. extremely competitive to the point that it became a friendly match.
shall not elaborate in case dio accused of being a sore loser. ><

second match was with A3; also year2 FSN.

however, this match was waaaay fun.
less shoving and more teamwork, it was enjoyable yeahs.
it seemed more like what i signed up for. :DD

we lost both, but i feel it was the second one which we really started playing. ;D

AND NOW.
i shall sleep because i have a !@#$^ CellB practical test at 8am.
dont want shirlee to keep nagging at me not to be _____.

first day back at school was.. quite fast. LOL
apparently there are no labs or tutorials this whole week.
which makes it v v slacky for us. they might as well have given 3 weeks holidays ! =/

but ohwells. holidays too long i might just rot or smth. ._.

went back to my usual routine of sleeping during lectures <3
gawd. so damn bored larhs.
even shirlee oso buay tong alr. :D

and and, amy cut bangs ! hahas.
she tried to cover it with a cap. feeling naked ? ;p

updates on my 2008 christmas !

hmm. had my birthday present included inside as well.
the red bear, with my birth date on it. ;p
i loved the whole thing, especially the uber chio white bag :D

simple event, we didnt celebrate it as much as last year.
my cousin was down with stomach flu larhs.
he was so miserable; kept throwing up whatever he ate and crying as he did so. ;x

so we spent the day playing games with him instead. but i dont mind ;D

peektures :D

the purpleee treee :Dpicture courtesy of jh ;p
my presents !
the white bag is damn preeetty! just what i wanted seh.
thanks 3rd aunt :D
birthday bearr~! i thought they really gave me a reusable shopping bag ;x
turns out to be 71% dark chocolate <3>

i HEARTS christmas :D

happy 5th birthday my little cousin ! :D

went school for CellB project meeting with shirlee and qai.
actually had sports fest briefing for ASc.
but i overslept, due to overdose of flu medicine the night before ;x
sok was also sick; get well soon yeahs ! x)

anyway, we were so very efficient ! hahas.
though shirlee and me had a 10min laughing fit. ;p
we finished the project today, only left with sok's parts.
ystrday's HPI also, only up to me to draw the heart diagram alr.

whee. deadlines all done by christmas. i like. :DD

met my aunts and cousins AND younger sister to cele my cousin's birthday.
went bowling at e hub again, lawls !

i just went last sunday sia, and met this horribly spoilt kid.
omg larhs. arnd 4yrs old plus i think.
he was snatching stuff from my cousin and screaming when he didnt get it.
looked like he was about to throw the ball at my cousin too.

worst thing?
his parents were arnd but they didnt bother to even stop him. tsktsk.

alrights. tata! and in advance,
merry christmas all ! xDD

19th december. hmm
surprised him with a cheesecakeee, and a present i made.
he banned me from buying anything ! rawrs.

slacked arnd eastpoint, then to white sands.
we like long bus rides :D

i met steph on the bus ! hahas.
been so long since i've seen her, she's still as steph-y as ever. ;p
she said the same thing everyone does; " omg jt, your hair is red ! "
eye-catching. ;x

went swensen's for dinner, omg. the waiter there still rmbs my name seh!
all because of that one event. lawls ._.
had salmon mushroom baked rice, my craving for quite a long time. :D
and and, frosted choco malt ice-cream! <3 br="">took 12 home, another bus ride. ;p
and that concludes the day. keke.

simple yet meaningful, the way you wanted it. x]

i'm officially SEVENTEEN! :D

celebration was awesome; simple yet fulfilling. x]
thanks to everyone who wished me, especially those who spent the day with me. <3 br="">okayys, i WILL elaborate on my day. keke.

met mini zkm along with jh at e hub, bought tickets to twilight at 7pm.
then, went to HEI SUSHI. :D
its actually sakae sushi, but halal; no sake wine, no pork. ohwells, w/e.
teatime buffet, so $13.90+ per person.
side orders, colored plates. all FOC. cheap right?

2 cups of chawanmushi, 1 bowl of miso soup, cha soba, fried tofu, wakame udon
dessert was peach mochi !
hahas. didnt take much sushi, cuz its not v fresh.
pales in comparison with kogoya in msia. ;x

oh yeah. me and jh, we tricked mini zkm into eating wasabi !
its his first time having jap cuisine you see. ;p

naz joined us AFTER we had our mochi dessert. ahahas, too bad. :D
they attempted to plot smth behind my back via whisperings and language changes.
LOL, so obvious. i not v blur you know. ._.

played 1 credit of time crisis4, gun calibration got prob! x_x
ohwells. for fun onlyy~
took neoprints with my beloved coconut ! hahas. shall post them tmr.

ahxiao joined us for the movie.
omg. she laughed like mad when jh gave her the mr. bean bear larhs!
bought popcorn and ice lemon tea; served by vanda, sok's friend. ;x
and naz paiseh sia. he went ticketing line to buy snacks.

but but, not entirely his fault larhs. the layout abit weird wad. bleh.

there was this guy sitting in front of mini zkm.
omg. his hair damn weird sia! spike until really like sonic the hedgehog.
somemore he act beng sia; even people from his clique tell him 'dont act cool can?'. lawls.

anyway. his hair blocked mini zkm.
and guess wad happened?
mini zkm leaned forward, tapped him on the shoulder, and said this,
' do you mind lowering yr head, its blocking the screen. '

ROFLMAO, i nearly laughed out loud in the cinema. ;x

moving on.

TWILIGHT WAS BRILLIANT
casting was sucky though, only bella was worth watching.
jacob and his quileute friends were so weird !
they looked like red indians or smth, seriously.

like wth. edward, hmm.
you gotta accept the fact that no actor can realistically potray him. ;p
but strictly saying, the actor IS good-looking.
much better than the poster. so munsterish ;x

took 2 sets of neoprints with ahxiao and coconut.
ahahas. damn fun larhs. we take until really siao sia. xD

and and, i met up with pb! so long nvr see him alr larhs.
he bought me a prezzie!
last minute, and not green tea.
BUT STILL. :DDD
kiwi and watermelon rock candy. deeleecious lehs. hahas.

went to meet mini zkm and naz at pasir ris park.
they supposedly sneaked off on the pretence of going to the toilets. ;x
and.. they got me a chocolate CAKEEEEE! hahas.

we encountered problems lighting the candles. but they did it ! ahahas.
smeared some of the chocolate goo on coconut and mini zkm. bleh.
one got angry and the other got revenge.
sorry the angry one ! forgive meeeeeee. ><

OKAY. and it marks the end of my celebration.

once again i repeat.
i'm OFFICALLY SEVENTEEN. :D

and mini zkm's NINETEEN tmr. i'm busy busy busy!

and, i hope we'll continue this way, to celebrate our birthdays one after another.
even till we're old and toothless, we shall. x]

2 more days ! :D

watching twilight on thursday, i cant wait!
altho edward's not as hot as the book potrays. ._.
but but but, its TWILIGHT

i cant wait i cant wait! xD
oh yeahs. i have this brilliant video of twilight characters, animated.
the artwork is simply nice, like woah~ :D
clickies!
and now. for the peeektures~

we were bored when wrapping the prizes ;p
kom doing her pole dance! :D
grace and nadiah, for volleyball :D

jason attempts to do his one-legged stand!

1st; failed
2nd; failed 3rd; success!
nice handsign :DD us, the subcomms!
and thats my freaking air horn ;x


angeline x) jeremy; 你okay marhs! :D sok and her korean superstar; kim kwi ii roy :D

sok and saph
she reminds me of amy, no? ;x
kom! :D
i dont know his actual name lehs!
people call him england. ;x
them.
us and the chicken wing! :D
ASc peeps. :DD

nadiah ;) whoo~ sexyaye lady!
saufi; everyone calls him boi. o.o saph :D jingkai :D
everyone called him kai ;x
yoshi is damn adorable can? :DDD

saph and ivy :D
my turn with the k star ;psubcomms and walkies ;D debrief at 3~4am! was half asleep ;x
reflections :) :DDD
sok and her final clash lollipopkai and his PAPER lollipop ;x
aha. sok looks sian ;xfinal clash in progress! :D
jeremy attacking saph. orh horh! xD england being a dot ._.
P10 :)

our 1~10 shots!
1!
2!
3!
4!
5!
6!
7!
8!
9!
10!
1st jump!
2nd!
P10 subcomms <3
credits to him for most shots. except the camwhore ones ;p oh ! saw yanling and shirlee in school after final clash.

i gave shirlee a WET hug :D
yanling dyed her hair purple and red!
keke. both our heads are damn bright as you can see. ;D